bitter, sweet and true

[donq]

Schindler's list by NL orchestra



After I watched Schindler's list 25 years ago, I didn't like Ralph Fiennes after that. I knew it was just his role, his acting, but somehow I still didn't like him. One thing I did like and always do is the Schindler's list theme song by John Williams. I listened almost all versions of it (piano, violin and guitar etc.).
Recently I've just listened to this new one. I didn't expect much at first but it turned out to be good. Here's some of its information on the woman in black (Davida Scheffers) who played cor anglais (woodwind oboe):

Davida Scheffers has lived her dream in winning a contest and the opportunity to play with the dutch Orchestra. She suffers from an extremely painful neuromuscular condition that derailed her career, and she thought she would never get to play in a professional orchestra again...The young blond lady is her daughter and was 18 years old that day.

[cyberangel]

Hi Monty

Many thanks for sharing this music...I love its haunting Melody. I love the way music not only opens the heart but stirs the soul. Sometimes when there are no words...music takes over. I have always loved this piece. When you have time look up "Life is Beautiful" it's in Italian but has English subtitles...there are two pieces of music I love in that movie...the main theme and the Opera scene...where he "wills" his princess to look over in his direction...it is played again in the concentration camp. It is a beautiful movie...it was our Son who said to watch it...he loved it as do I. Very moving. Anyway catch you again soon. I have a lot to catch up with, so please forgive my absence.

Love and light my friend

[cyberangel]

We heard this playing in the background of a radio interview earlier this evening and both my husband and I was overwhelmed but the melody. It was playing in the background of a sad story of a family whose 19 year old son had tragically lost his life in a car rally. We didn't catch the full interview but this music playing in the back ground made it all the more poignant.

[donq]

Dorota Osińska-Calling You

Lorraineeeeeeeeee

Your friends are calling youuuuuu.
Roger thattttttttt?

Calling You
Holly Cole

A desert road from Vegas to nowhere
Someplace better than where you've been
A coffee machine that needs some fixing
In a little café just around the bend

I am calling you
I am calling you
Can't you hear me?
I am calling you

A hot, dry wind blows right through me
The baby's crying and I can't sleep
But I can feel change is coming
It's coming closer, sweet release

Ooo, ooo, ooo

I am calling you
I am calling you
Can't you hear me?
I am calling you

A desert road from Vegas to nowhere
Someplace better than where you've been
A coffee machine that needs some fixing
In a little café just around the bend

A hot, dry wind, it blows right through me
The baby's crying and I can't sleep
But I can feel that a change is coming
It's coming closer, sweet release

I am calling you
I am calling you
Can't you hear me?
I am calling you...

[cyberangel]

Dear Monty, Karen & Friends

Thank you Monty for calling me...I heard you very clear my friend as if you had called out from the distant hills. I felt my soul pull me back to this place once more...I wasn't sure why but now I understand.

Oh, my friends what beautiful connections we all have that we can go through life and know we're not alone. Please forgive me because this is short but just know I'm here and you are here with me...you all have forever touched my heart and I know one day far from now...we will all recognize each other...our soul group...in the God Light.

I'm not gone my friends...I'm just away for now. I will return if God allows...may I ask if you all can keep me in your prayers until I return. I will bring you all with me in my heart during my surgery on Monday. You don't know how much this means to me right now.

Monty, THANK YOU for calling me my dear friend from afar.

Love and light Angel


I hear you calling me
You called me when
The moon had veiled her light
Before I went from you
Into the night
I came
Do you remember
Back to you for one last kiss
Beneath the cold starlight

I hear you calling me
And oh the ringing gladness
Of your voice
The one that made my
Loving heart rejoice
You spoke
Do you remember
And my heart still hears
The distant music of your voice

I hear you calling me
Though years have stretched
Their weary lengths between
And on your grave
The mossy grass green
I stand
Do you behold me listening here
Hearing your voice
Through all the years between

I hear you calling me

[donq]

Hi Lorraine,

I'm so glad to hear from you. I was calling you even when I was taking a shower.
I almost thought that your sixth sense was a bit rusty lately...and that even worried me more.
But now I've just come to understand.
Sorry to hear our you health.
Take your time as much as you need. We don't go anywhere. We'll wait and pray for you, no, not pray, but sending all of our (invisible) energies to you.
And I also kind sure that Karen also doesn't go anywhere this time (even she might not be able to come here so often like before, because of her new job).
Take care, Lorraine, and be strong!
See you soon. I'm sure of that.
From your friend,
monty

[honey]

Hi Lorraine,

Oh how I have thought of you often over the last 2 to 3 years. I did try to find you on FB but could not remember your surname. I had to close my old FB account suddenly, and did not have the opportunity, or was thinking straight to transfer or make a note of your full name.

I loved what you said about our Godlight soul family. I hold you, and our dear friends, Monty, George and Ace close to my heart and always will do. Hopefully we can reconnect again properly when you are feeling well and strong.

I don't know what the surgery is for, but I shall definitely be thinking of you on Monday and with your permission will send some distant reiki. You are loved and held safe in the light my lovely. So good to see you again. I am definitely going to be around. Though as Monty has said, my job keeps me busy, but not that busy that I can't make time for here. I've missed you all terribly.

Take care, love and light
Karen

[cyberangel]

Dear Monty and Karen

Thank you both so much :-) I was just off to bed when I thought I'd check in.

Karen just so you know I got that thank you <3 and I will be in touch but it may be a few weeks hopefully sooner. I will be able to fill you in more once this is behind me. I've asked my hubby to let you all know if something happens and I can't return...but know this I have every intention of making a full recovery and can't wait to catch up with you Karen . Im just so happy to reconnect again with you and Monty. I look forward to catching up properly when I'm better and also reconnecting with Ace, Robert and Gruntal. In the meantime know this I have often thought of you probably as often as you thought of me...I especially think of you on your birthday being my birthday twin hahaha. I'm tired now so I say goodnight because I want to also thank my other beautiful friend, Monty.

Monty, my dear friend, where do I even begin, I am listening to the beautiful songs...both I love. I also agree with you Tina Turner version is much better...a far deeper meaning. You know just how to reach me my friend through the vibration of music. I'm laughing though thinking of you thinking of me an old lady and for so many days I have felt far older than I am, and I have lots more grey hairs now then when we first met, my friend. I remind myself though it's not what we look like on the outside but what's on the inside that truly matters. I guess I am am old soul...so many people used to say that to me as a young teen...long before I even knew what they meant by it...so I guess I have grown into my soul.

I want to thank you for calling out...I have heard you before now but I had to put you out of my mind because I just hadn't the energy to go into details or explain my situation, so please know I wasn't rusty I was saving my energy for my journey to recovery. I am so looking forward to catching up with you, Karen and all our wonderful God Light family. I probably won't post again now before my operation as I have a lot of preparation to do...but know you have really given me such a boost for Monday. I already feel so much stronger.

So until we meet again my friends, I will say Thank you and Goodnight.

love and light

Angel x

[donq]

(don't know if you'll come to read this but I'll try anyway)

Hi Larraine,

Sorry for my a bit late reply. I was in the middle of something yesterday.
I was going to quote some quotes for cheering up someone who is in your situation but have changed my mind. I will leave those smart men alone. For who knows if they could really deal with the situation facing you.

Hmm...maybe just one exception here:

"Do not believe that the person who is trying to offer you solace lives his life effortlessly among the simple and quiet words that might occasionally comfort you? (on the contrary) His life is filled with much hardship and sadness, and it remains far behind yours. But if it were otherwise, he could never have found these words."

-Rainer Maria Rilke

So, what I'm going to say is the truth. Not from my theories but from my direct experiences.
You might remember that, 35 yeas ago I was in ICU for a long while. Got two big operations (surgeries) within one week (appendix ruptured). They even didn't stitch my incision yet. Just using some clips there. And doctors believed I was rather not be able to make it. Well, I did. Sorry to disappointed you all, docs!
No secret. I realized later, from my visiting book, that there were almost 100 guests (some even didn't close to me) coming to see me at the hospital. Yes, I thanked them but also knew that they might think like my doctors, I was not going to make it. :-)
Anyway, there has been a strange chain of events here: first Karen was back, then she seemed to be so eager to contact you. I just realize now that she might have the special sense like you. Then George and Robert showed. What I'm trying to say is they...we are all your friends, Lorraine. Something was pulling us back here.
So be strong and fight. Fight for your kids, your husband, your family, your friends etc there. And also fight for your friends here.
Then come back and play with us again...here.
From your friend
monty

P.S. For avoiding the global warming and "energy" saving, can you ask someone to come here to tell us what time your surgery will begin on Monday?

[mojomojo]

Hello Lorraine,
Not sure if you will see this post before Monday.
I have just discovered this thread, now I understand why Monty asked if I knew how to contact you.
I had no idea you were unwell, or what your operation is for, nor do I need to know, but I do have a strong feeling everything will be alright.
Please be aware, you will be in my thoughts and prayers over the weekend.
God bless, Lorraine, and we will talk soon.
Robert.

[donq]

I live in the future of Lorraine (at least 6 hours ahead). So how this is gonna work?
My Monday is still Lorraine's Sunday. Hmm...I might have to go back to the past?
This really makes my head spin.

[donq]

There's the Metta chanting in Buddhism. Metta is a Pali word meaning loving-kindness. I'd like to post some of it here. Somehow it helps me to concentrate more.

May all beings be free from suffering.
May whatever they have gained, not be lost.
All beings are owners of their karma.
As far as the highest planes of existance
to as far down as the lowest plane in the entire universe,
whatever beings that move on earth - may they be free from mental suffering and enmity.
May they be free from physical suffering and danger.
As far as the highest plane of existance to as far down as the lowest plane in the entire universe
whatever things that move on water - may they be free from mental suffering and enmity.
May they be free from physical suffering and danger.

As far as the highest plane of existance to as far down as the lowest plane in the entire universe

whatever things that move in air - may they be free from mental suffering and enmity.

May they be free from physical suffering and danger.

[cyberangel]

My dear friends

I am so happy to be here. Operation was successful now is the recovery. I have a few months ahead but I feel strong even if my body is weak. My breathing is difficult but will improve as I get stronger. I want to thank you all so much I know you were all with me in the operating room. Thank you. I'm still bit groggy from the anesthesia but so far not in bad pain. I am very tired but will read more than I write if that is ok. I just wanted you all to know that all is well and thank you all so much...Monty, Karen and Robert. All you you and your prayers and thoughts have helped me so much. Please send healing thoughts and prayers for my breathing to improve. Also any music it is very powerful healer. Thank you Robert I did see your message just before I went for operation and I believe your words so much going down. I had no fear. Sorry for all the words it's hard to get these sentences to make sense with my fuzzy brain. Just know sending you all, all my deepest gratitude and I am so thankful for such good friends.

Love and light
Angel xxx

[gruntal]

I knew I forgot something. It very embarrassing being old and forgetful. I forgot about Cyberangel's surgery. I had a dream last night I accidently broke my friend's cell phone so I wished me back in time before it happened. I guess in real life some things may not be that important. Except if some one that means something to you is still alive!

[honey]

Hi Lorraine,

So relieved to see your post. I was thinking of you all day on Monday. Have had a bit of a family crisis here, and have not been able to log on till now. I knew you would be ok. Just focus now darling on your recovery and regaining your strength. I'm Focusing on your respiratory system. Sending you much love and healing.

Hope to speak more when your feeling stronger. But for now know you are loved and if you need anything just ask.

Love and light
Karen

[donq]

Hi Lorraine,

I know these past few days, your time might seem to move so slow. Everything might seem to be so boring. Not to mention your pain. But try to look at it this way, at least it's still peaceful comparing to the chaotic and the pandemic out there, right?

Form where you are sitting or lying now, what do you see when you look out off the windows? Do you see some tall trees? Try to focus on those tops of the trees, swaying slowly in the wind blows. It somehow makes you feel relax and peaceful, right?

You are lucky, at least you are not in ICU anymore. When I regained my consciousness, I found myself on a hospital's bed closed to ICU; all my hands were tied down, to preventing me from scratching my surgical wounds. Will tell you some day about my adventure there. :-)

Form my experience, I believe that you have to stop asking these questions: why this happens to me etc.? It already happened, right? No need to try to find the answers any more. And why these pains? It's just the way your body trying to recover itself. That's all. And yes, your body has magical power to heal itself. No doctors can do better than it. Any of your negative thoughts will only interfere with or even block this miracle process. So you just have to let this happens. It might be a bit slow, but it will happen very soon. You will feel better and better every day. Look back in your past, haven't this miracle process, of your body healing itself, happened to you so many times, right? It will happen again for sure. All you have to do is embrace this transitions calmly. That's all.
Take care, Lorraine. And feel well so soon.
from your friend
monty

[cyberangel]

Dear friends I could do with some prayers. Things aren't looking so good at the moment.
Please send healing especially for internal bleeding and healing.

[donq]

Hi,

If, and only if you can, please read this to Lorraine? Thanks.

...Adversity is like the periods of rain-cold, comfortless, unfriendly,
yet from such seasons the flower and their fruit leave their birth.
Stars may be seen from the bottom of a deep well
when they cannot be discerned from the top of a mountain..."
-Rabbi Joseph Krauskopf

"Yonder, past the islands, lay the ocean in stolid rest. Many a time I gazed upon it from the mountains. On calm days the ships scarcely moved. I could see the same sails for days at a time. But when the winds blew up, the mountains in the distance almost disappeared, the storm came, a gale from the Northwest - a drama, and I the spectator. Earth and sky were mingled together as if lost in smoke. The sea tumbled in fantastic dances in the air and shaped itself into figures of men, and horses, and rent banners. I stood sheltered under a cliff and thought strange thoughts - my soul was tense. 'God knows", I whispered, 'what I witness today - and why the sea opens itself before my eyes. Perhaps at this moment I am staring into the heart of the brain of Earth. Behold how it travails and seethes!' - And not a cry, not a human voice, nothing but this thunder about my head. Far out to sea lay a reef, alone. When the great waves wheeled up and over it, it tore them like some mad wheel; no, like a seagod rising dripping wet into the air, blowing his hair and beard in a tempest about his head..."
The above quote is Nordland...as Knut Hamsun described it.

"I whisper a prayer of gratitude for the silent night, for the mountains and the music of the sea that sweeps through my heart - my thanksgiving for mere life, for the mere breath of my lungs, for the joy of living this night. Listen, in the West; no! in the East. It is God everlasting. The silence muttering in my ears is the blood of Pan seething, God penetrating Nature, permeating me. I catch a glimpse of a cobweb in the gleam of my campfire, a sound of oars in the harbor. The Northern Lights glide into the sky. And I give thanks that it is I who am sitting here. "Silence. A pine cone falls to the ground. That was a pine cone," I say. The moon has risen, the fire flickers in the half burned logs, and is about to go out. In the deep of the night I go home."
-Pan by Knut Hamsun

Lorraine, in this time I quoted him because I needed someone who could tell you something even better than me.
As once he wrote:
"Language must resound with all the harmonies of music. The writer must always, at all times, find the tremulous word which captures the thing and is able to draw a sob from my soul by its very rightness. A word can be transformed into a colour, light, a smell. It is the writer´s task to use it in such a way that it serves, never fails, can never be ignored. The writer must be able to revel and roll in the abundance of words. He must know not only the direct but also the secret power of a word. There are overtones and undertones to a word, and lateral echoes, too."

[cyberangel]

Thank you my dear Monty I will try and read this when I'm a little more with it. Unfortunately, there have been some complications after my surgery which may require further surgery. They are monitoring me very closely and waiting to see what my body is going to do. If I should require more surgery then I must go to a specialist hospital with more experienced surgeons who preform this surgery. I wish this was better news my friends. I'm a little scared and I'm praying my body will heal itself but I also accept if it's to be helped I will surrender. My pain although bad is durable but it's my breathing that is struggling I'm panting because I can't take in full breaths. My heart is also beating very fast 125 beats a minute and this is concerning them. I've so many family and friends praying for me right now but I would like my God Light family to also pray/think positive thoughts for me. . I'm calling all Angels to watch and protect me and I ask for strength.

Love and light

[gruntal]

complications noted. my pulse is usually around 100 with a SPO around 95% due to my congestive heart failure. it does slow me down and anything worse would be dangerous. I will wish you to get better - I think you still want to hike the countryside and be outside in nature.

>george

[honey]

Dear Lorraine,

I'm sorry I'm so slow in replying. I've had a few family issues to deal with and haven't been able to spend much time online.

I'm sorry lovely that your struggling at the moment. Have faith in the doctors and surgeons who are taking care of you. They know what they are doing. From your own perspective. Eat, rest and visualise yourself in a beautiful healing light. Let the colour come to you. Your higher self knows what you need. In the meantime I will continue to send you healing. Everything will be ok.

Sending you lots of love and light
Love Karen

[aceofcups]

Hi Friends,

Just finding theses posts on forum that were posted after the last time I got on here. So sorry to hear you have been struggling with health issues Lorraine... requiring surgery and stuff.. hope your recovering now and getting better each day. Sending you healing now as I read this...

Peace to all my old friends here.

aceofcups

[mojomojo]

May not be the most appropriate place to ask, but has anyone any news of Lorraine?



Robert.

[aceofcups]

Hi Robert,

NO- Been concerned also when I read on forum she was having health issues a month or so ago.

ace

[mojomojo]

Hi Charlie,
Thanks for the reply, maybe someone will have some news.

Robert.