Post by gruntal on Nov 8, 2018 20:20:45 GMT
Even in high school it wasn't that easy for me to speak since I didn't get much practice. Yeah I was that anti-social. Doing it in Spanish was strictly academic. I went to Sunday School - well - every Sunday but it wasn't really that much a part of my life. Now I try to spend a least a few minutes each night in my Sanctum. But it takes me 30 to 45 minutes there to just get in the mood and leave the world behind and by that time I am tired and need to get back to my "techie" projects.
My "odd dreams" are getting so bad I even seek to change them when I am asleep. If I ever got really good at that I shudder to think of the consequences. My subjective reality could over shadow my objective life to the extent I would live in another world of my own making or insight.
Am I ready for that?
Immersing yourself in a language or life style or mental state usually is acknowledged as the only way to learn that. But then can you go back? Do you even want to? Well being multilingual is okay but multi-mental is akin to being psychotic. Like a house divided against itself.
You can of course be complete. Embracing all without judgement. But still another catch: you pretty much need to experience it all first for it to sink in and obviously much is destructive. Some lessons are fatal. It doesn't help when they are still fun. At least they were at the time.
I confess I don't know as much as I should. And I don't let on even all I know. A women only the other day asked about my strange disguise. It felt comfortable.
I'm not just ready to be all that serious yet ....
My "odd dreams" are getting so bad I even seek to change them when I am asleep. If I ever got really good at that I shudder to think of the consequences. My subjective reality could over shadow my objective life to the extent I would live in another world of my own making or insight.
Am I ready for that?
Immersing yourself in a language or life style or mental state usually is acknowledged as the only way to learn that. But then can you go back? Do you even want to? Well being multilingual is okay but multi-mental is akin to being psychotic. Like a house divided against itself.
You can of course be complete. Embracing all without judgement. But still another catch: you pretty much need to experience it all first for it to sink in and obviously much is destructive. Some lessons are fatal. It doesn't help when they are still fun. At least they were at the time.
I confess I don't know as much as I should. And I don't let on even all I know. A women only the other day asked about my strange disguise. It felt comfortable.
I'm not just ready to be all that serious yet ....
