Spiritual Question about Healing and Intent

[tribunalofmercy]

...and I will Try to be as direct and concise as possible...lol

The concept of spiritual healing is not new to me because I first recognized and used it consciously 27 years ago - the first time I was "awakened" - and now I am doing it Some again, with conscious intent; mostly emotional healing, but in my new awareness I have become concerned about that Intent, especially with these long-distance energy clearings or "boosts" when I do not know a person well.

"I" feel I must be Completely at One with myself: no residual anger issues from earlier in my day, or no Problems I have not "cleared" in myself before I begin the work on Others, etc.   I do not Like the idea of having "two minds" when I enter this, and possibly be distracted or be still thinking of something Else "somewhere inside my head". Does that make sense?       I worry that the energy from my distractions may mix with the energy I am Sending...so I make Sure of "where I am" beforehand.

I now have met people who approach this as a Job and do not see things as I do...to them, there is a Routine to follow, like rituals - proper procedure - and "everything will be okay".

   

So what is true? I guess I look at the healing energy as Sacred, like anything else, but do I take it too seriously? Do you feel that perhaps "sacred geometry" or something will apply and just Take Over, no matter if I have issues going on?

What is truth in this?       I covet your thoughts.

Thank you,

Mary Anne

[donq]

Hi Mary Anne,

Once I asked Karen if she ever felt exhausted after doing her healing session (Reiki), she said no. She explained that she was just a conduit and didn’t really use her energy but the universal energy out there. She sometimes even felt that her energy was boosted after the healing!

I don’t know much about spiritual healing for other (physical condition) but know a lot about healing myself; I had had to; as I’ve got a lot of physical pain after my two big operations (it’s long story, just let me skip this part). Suffice to say it’s normal that I will suffer from migraine at least 4-5 times a day. And it has been like that for almost 20 years now. Any migraine drug has no effect on me any more.

I believe the key is to find the very moment of changes. Let me quote from a great poet, Rilke:

So you mustn't be frightened, dear Mr. Kappus, if a sadness rises in front of you, larger than any you have ever seen; if an anxiety, like light and cloud-shadows, moves over your hands and over everything you do. You must realize that something is happening to you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand and will not let you fall. Why do you want to shut out of your life any uneasiness, any misery, any depression, since after all you don't know what work these conditions are doing inside you? Why do you want to persecute yourself with the question of where all this is coming from and where it is going? Since you know, after all, that you are in the midst of transitions and you wished for nothing so much as to change. If there is anything unhealthy in your reactions, just bear in mind that sickness is the means by which an organism frees itself from what is alien; so one must simply help it to be sick, to have its whole sickness and to break out with it, since that is the way it gets better. In you, dear Mr. Kappus, so much is happening now; you must be patient like someone who is sick, and confident like some one who is recovering; for perhaps you are both. And more: you are also the doctor, who has to watch over himself. But in every sickness there are many days when the doctor can do nothing but wait. And that is what you, insofar as you are your own doctor, must now do, more than anything else.
-from Letters To A Young Poet

That was very true. I believe that in any healing session, (worldly or spiritual one)the cure is depended on both a healer AND a patient. The very moment of changes has less to do with any medicine but something unexplainable. Always unexplainable. Why someone’s toothache was immediately lessened on the way to see his dentist? Or when he just met his doctor and tried so hard to show him how much pain he got and that of the reason why he went there in the first place).

Yes, you were so right about completely being one with oneself whether in the case of healing other or healing oneself.

P.S. Oh! I haven't had my breakfast yet. Be right back. :-)

[donq]

Hi again Mary Anne,

I would like to add something more to make our points (and in case of anyone here might also has suffered from migraine like me).
Migraine is incurable. Ok, in some cases, it could be cured. But in the most cases, it could not. Besides, it depends on so many factors: controlling your stress; controlling your food etc. The question is how? Most people have to go out to work, dealing with rush hours;bad bosses/co-workers/urgent tasks etc. everyday. Someday they even have to skip some meals. So it’s very hard to eat only healthy food everyday. Besides, it has to do with money, too. Healthy (organic) foods are more expensive than normal food, not to mention it’s not easy to find it near the workplace they have to go everyday.

Oh! Too much prelude, sorry. Let’s back to the point.

Migraine drug (pill-medicine) contains three basic (but powerful) components: Aspirin, Paracetamol and Caffeine (only brand names here, for easy understanding). I have tried those all, in many brand names, for many years. Please understand that I might not really need them, but it could save a lot of my time. I might take me a few hours to deal with my pain without any pills while it took only minutes with this migraine pill. Anyway, at some point, it’s not enough. I also have had to use self acupressure, too. The latter is so powerful. As for Traditional Chinese medicine, there are trigger points on our body that are related to very different organs (inside) our bodies. Anyway, we have to find and choose only the trigger points that really work for us. For me, the most effective points to alleviate my migraine pain is on my left shoulder (somewhat close to my back) AND on my right (somewhat outside) calf (close to my knee). There are also some other points for relieving migraine/headache, too, but those two very points have worked for me for many years.

However, that is still not enough. Ok, after I took my migraine pill and it didn’t work, then I had to do self acupressure AND waiting for the very moment of changes. During that time I could not do anything, I mean I could not rush its process. What I could only do was trying to calm myself (mind and body) as much as I could. Didn’t even expect any outcome; didn’t mind how long it would take. Then, and only then, the moment of changes would come by itself! Sometimes it came ASAP, just within a few minutes, but sometimes it took me almost an hour or more. But when it was going to come, I could felt it beforehand. All I needed to do was embrace that moment and holding on it. And my migraine pain would be gone. Always gone. Never failed.

Again, if any time I could not completely be one with myself, that very moment of changes would never come. Simple like that.

[tribunalofmercy]

Hi Monty

I remember migraines...I used to have them when I was younger, and what a Horrible experience I'm glad you used your Focus to alleviate the migraine, and I Understand what you mean about being "one with yourself" in order to Do it.


I have experienced several things in my life at different times, that Lasted a year or even a few years....things that were Painful, that preoccupied my time, etc. Like the migraines...like anxiety and panic attacks....just, things that showed up out of Nowhere and were both painful and sometimes Scary.


It's funny...when I am on the computer and I am Reading something, or Typing something to someone, I have music in the background from a playlist going, but I almost Never hear it while I am "focused" on something Else. Joe, my spirit guide, pointed that out to me one day early in my training, when I was trying to Concentrate enough to Meditate properly (I have ADD...can you imagine that? haha)

Anyway, my neighbors sometimes yell at each other or play loud music, and I had been getting Distracted when I tried to meditate but Joe Reminded me that I could do it when I was Focused on something! When I was really "into" a message online, reading it or responding....I didn't hear the music right in Front of me, so why couldn't I apply that to my distractions in meditation? (an "aha" moment)

It Worked - I learned to be So Focused on HIM, on God and my Time there in that "state of being", that I forgot Everything else: time, neighbors, everything but the Moment. It took away any pain I was feeling from sitting still so long, too. Everything fell away....It's been a Revelation for me.


This next part does not directly apply to migraines, but something I learned a long time ago that helped with my panic attacks, and several Other things in my life, was the difference between Denial, and Embracement...I think I will talk about that in a separate thread somewhere, but the idea (again!!) is that when we lose Fear, and/or stop focusing on the thing in Front of us, we begin to experience everything Else, and it puts things in Perspective. (now Where have I read that?? lol)

Sometimes those things in "front" of us can be really Big things, though...or Loud things. or Painful things. Like the migraines - and then we must be Really Brave to keep going until we are "at one with ourselves" and can Move Past it.

I commend you, Monty. Thanks for sharing with me -

Mary Anne

[tribunalofmercy]

Something else, if anyone wants to address it - some people I have gotten to know feel (and it sounds like a Good thing) that the "closer" you are to a person - the more Bonded you feel to them in some way - the less you may want to be the One who reaches out to Heal them, because of the sharing of energies and how it risks lingering with us. Especially for me as an Empath, that happens very easily...it's something I am still Learning.

For two quick examples - and remember, even though I did this in the past it was almost Random, as the need arose, and without full Understanding of everything involved. I have been New to doing this! lol - anyway, I sent a long-distance "boost" to one acquaintance who could Not seem to move out of her depression, and within 24 hours she had gone Completely Manic....uh, she got a little Too Much energy, and I don't really know how to Balance yet, except by Asking the Source as I send the energy to Intervene for me, to give what is Needed and no More. (oops)

Also, I sent long-distance emotional healing energy to another acquaintance - more specifically 'healing' than just boosting - and she immediately felt the effects, but "I" received Her negative energy into Myself when it happened, like transference - I spent two Days trying to "get rid" of all the excess negatives, lol. (goodness)

I have been more Cautious about with Whom I work now, but I guess better shielding would be helpful in the case of the transference? What do you suggest?

Thank you Ongoing-ly

Mary Anne

[sparklekaz]

Hi Mary Anne,

In your post you said "I feel I must be Completely at One with myself: no residual anger issues from earlier in my day, or no Problems I have not "cleared" in myself before I begin the work on Others, etc. I do not Like the idea of having "two minds" when I enter this, and possibly be distracted or be still thinking of something Else "somewhere inside my head". Does that make sense? I worry that the energy from my distractions may mix with the energy I am Sending...so I make Sure of "where I am" beforehand."

I agee completely with what you have said. But as we both know, clearing the mind of 'distractions', 'mental chatter', is much easier said than done. This was particularly difficult for me when I first started channeling healing energy. I was so eager to do it right, was self conscious and constantly analysing myself, analyzing the sensations I was feeling. 'Am I doing it properly'. 'Where shall I move to next'. Rather than just getting into what I call 'the zone' and just doing it. I also started to get 'mirroring' sensations when healing, which was unexpected, and I was not prepared for it. Mirroring, is where the healer starts to experience/feel some of the sensations the recipient is feeling.

To give you an example: One lady came to me who suffered with eye problems. When I started to channel the healing energy around her eyes - my one eye started watering furiously. This was a new experience for me and I wasn't sure what to do 'with it', so panicked slightly lol I spoke to my Reiki Master about it and she explained to me what it was, why it was happening and more importantly how to stop it. She told me that it was a manifestation of my empathic ability. That it showed that I had connected affectively with the recipient. She told me that I should acknowledge the sensation, and thank it for showing me that the connection was working well. Then to ask it to stop. To see the sensation as energy, moving down my body, into my legs and feet and safely dispersed into the earth.

Back to your question about being in 'two minds'. I had struggled with this condition for a while, as I did have particularly when younger a 'butterfly mind', my thoughts would flit all over the place. It was mainly because of my concern of doing things properly. One day I was thinking about this, and I suddenly realized I was using the words 'I' and 'my' a lot. When in fact the healing energy is not coming from me. I do not control it, or direct it. All I am mean't to be doing is 'offering myself' as a healing channel, a conduit. I knew in that moment, that 'I' had to get out of 'my own way'. From then on, 'I' consciously 'switched off'. I'm not saying it happened straight away, because it didn't. But gradually, I was able to just create that 'space' for the healing to come in and do what it needed to do, without any 'interference' from me.

The key word for me was 'surrender'. Surrender myself to a higher force, one which knows, without needing any help from me. I understand with your condition, this will be difficult. But it can be done. If you find quietening your mind down hard to do. Try focusing on a word, or a mantra. Or one image that is meaningful for you. When I meditate, I use two images. One is of a candle flame. The other, is a pool of water, with ripples that softly spread outwards. You could try this or something else that is a powerful symbol for you, when you are channeling healing energy. Another tip, would be to put on in the background a beautiful piece of music that sooths you, allow your thoughts to drift off with the music, knowing that you are allowing the energy to flow through you, unimpeded.

If I am unwell, or feeling particularly down, I will not channel healing energy, until I am feeling better. I am very aware of the possibility of cross contamination of the auric field. As you have pointed out yourself; the transfer of energy is a two way thing. Even though the healing energy is not my energy, I use my auric field to connect with the auric field of the recipient. Thus allowing the energy to come down into me through my crown chakra, which is then directed towards the person receiving healing. I think it is important to point out that I am sharing only from my own experience, and that we are all different. But I hope it helps you. Please don't hesitate if you want to ask any more questions. I am always happy to share.

Love and light
Kaz

[tribunalofmercy]

Oh wow, Kaz, you have such a Clear and Wonderful way of explaining things Yes, I Never want to get to the place that it becomes about "me" and what "I" am doing, when it is Source energy coming through...it's funny because 27 years ago, when I was "first awakened", it was Such a Powerful awakening for me that I couldn't Possibly use "my own" energy; it was All About God then, just the Joy of being IN Him, aware, was enough to channel Ongoing energy without Ever using mine...over the years I put all that Away from me because I had been in Such a conservative atmosphere and some of those things were just Too frightening for others to accept.

So I'm back to Square One, lol - trying to "get back" what the years have eaten, methodically, with Knowledge now, but that can sometimes cloud the issue, can't it? Forgetting where everything Truly comes from

You've given me Much to think about today, and I thank you

Mary Anne

[gruntal]

One of the advantages of computer chats is that only the relevant things get communicated. If it is what we want to say then and only then does it hit the keyboard.

But one of the great advantages of my "group therapy" sessions is that I get to go out and meet and sit down with the others and observe them in the whole. It can be painfully obvious if things of a distracting nature are disabling best efforts although a much deeper revelation can only answer why this is happening.

If I am told I am not ready for the Advanced teachings I might get offended unless of course I hear that in person from one whose very body language tells me their advanced state of being. That there would even be a difference in levels between different persons must surely go hand with hand with the desire to advance forward or to forsake our negative aspects.

It is suggested the gaining of abilities is partly seeking them out but just as important is abandoning disabilities too. Anyone can mix the ingredients even if they are mad or disgusted but only a select few can deliver them effectively where and when they are needed at the right time. That does not go "by the book" and sacred geometry only points the way.

Also some patients scare very easily and what can you expect if deep down inside you are scaring yourself ?

[tribunalofmercy]

You are right, gruntal It's Nice within the confines of the virtual world to "slow down" and Think about what one wants to say (though I do not always do it! lol)...I now have Two posts to consider, and the wisdom they have shared...thank you, gruntal -

Mary Anne

[tribunalofmercy]

When I was younger and first awakened I found that, when the "spirit moved", I felt compelled to move around and Touch people during a Church service, as well as to channel words of God at times...the problem was, I was not yet Mature (and I am still not!)....I was "imperfect", and those who Accepted what I did, also expected me to behave as well as the Pope. Um, I failed Miserably, and reflected that I was not Ready to "perform miracles" if I was not Also ready to Behave Like God, completely.

In shame, I put my Desires and my Action behind me; on the back burner, so to speak. And did Not want to use them again, in the same way, until this year. I only gave people my Energy for about 19 of the last 22 years of being "awakened", which has been Nice, or Helpful...I would pray with people and they would experience their Own miracles soon after, which I both believed and Knew was enough....God understands "where I have been".

So now I want to be more Sure of myself - not that I can behave like the Pope! haha, but that I will do only what I Know I am called to do, with permission and authority, moving within what Is...it's interesting to me to observe what "some" people are calling "the new permissiveness" today, on other websites where I am a member...some believe that this new Understanding we are being given of Spirituality, gives us permission to be Anything We Want, and everyone else can just Go To Blazes....

Kinda like some parts of the 60's movement, lol - and I firmly believe it's never been About that; true Love is Servanthood, though we do not have to be either doormats or be at the beck and call of others...it's about Desire, desire to Give without expecting a return, it's about the whole Basin-and-Towel experience...(that's another song by Michael Card)...

And, I'm ranting or something ...Guess I should have "practiced" this post in a word document and copied-and-pasted, instead of just Talking. again.


We'll all be ready when we're ready I've never been Frightened so much as a victim of my own Mind, which was so filled with the condemnation of others from childhood up, that I keep going back to Egypt...the enslavements of self-doubt, unworthiness, etc - and of all things, that IS something we are supposed to be "free of" now. Not "free to do Whatever", but free to Be Exactly what we are Meant to be. No Fear. lol

[sparklekaz]

Why is it I wonder, do those who give unstintingly of themselves, in truth and honesty, believe that to be truly spiritual, enlightened or to connect to the divine within, that they have to be perfect. That any flaw or weakness of character (as they perceive it) indicates that they are unworthy. I find it so sad Mary Anne that you felt that you fell so short of this 'ideal' you had in your mind of how someone who wants to share their love of God and desire to heal and help others, should - for want of a better word, behave, that you stopped doing it.

News Flash - No one is perfect! And to be totally honest, I believe it is through our imperfections that we learn and grow as human beings. For how can someone who has never made a mistake, or acted rashly and inappropriately possibly relate to, understand and empathise with those who have? When we self criticize, we pass judgement on ourselves. And yet, with other's, we are compassionate, forgiving and understanding. Why is it that we cannot extend those same loving qualities to ourselves. Consider this also. Would God, the divine creative energy, the universal healing source, use us as channels, conduits, for this beautiful healing energy, if we were not deemed worthy, in the first place?

I truly believe that though we should never stop questioning, searching, learning and working on the areas in our lives that we feel can be improved. We should never believe for a single minute that we are not 'deserving' or worthy. When I have my moments of self doubt and trust me I get them frequently. I remind myself - that by constantly self criticizing, I am rejecting myself. When I am doing this, I am also rejecting the God light within me, the divine spark that we all carry. Be true to yourself, stop trying to justify or validate yourself to others, or trying to live up to other people's expectations. Give your all, to whatever you do, and know, believe, trust, that it is enough. I leave you with a little quote I love, but can't remember who said it, and it is this. "I've given up trying to be perfect, because I've decided just to be me"

Love and light
Kaz

[Bartholomew]

The essence of the healing, no matter the system being used or none at all, that we all are so familiar with is nothing more than creating on the appropriate plane.  When there is an imperfection on the physical, ethereal or astral it may be corrected by going to those planes (usually the plane just above) and creating the form which is desired.   Most of this work is done on the ethereal plane.  The physical is then provoked and follows, an adjustment is effected and the subject is said to have been "healed".  This is precisely the way the Master Jesus did "miracles".   When He turned water into wine He did so my creating on the ethereal plane.  He impressed His mind upon the molecules of water (on the ethereal "water")  and created the additional ingredients (out of ethereal matter which is no more than accumulations of ethereal energy) which were necessary so that what was water could be wine.  Now wine existed instead of water on the ethereal and all that was necessary was for the physical to follow suit, which it did.  It was not a technically difficult thing for Him to do.   Again Jesus used His mind as the catalyst.  Looking further into the specific mechanics of creating we find that the average human being already knows how to create on as high as the astral plane.  This is evident in the occasional discomfort which is felt by a sensitive person when in the presence of an angry person.  Anger creates an astral thoughtform which is harmful to any who encounter it, on the astral plane where all of humanity is functional.

Now about creating on higher planes I will say that there is only one way to gain this capability and that is through the ability of the soul of third initiation or above.  No disciple of lesser standing will ever, for instance, repair blind eyes.   The medium through which the force is impressed upon the appropriate plane substance is the mind of the healer.   This is very much like the process which created our familiar universe 13 billion or so years ago.  There was no material then and thus no time which is only an effect of matter.  There was a collection of great minds however and these had intentful purpose.  Together they applied the force of their minds upon lower spiritual mass causing it to slow and congeal into physical matter.   The rest is history but that's how it happened.   Ever since that time it has been the business of mankind to grow and evolve so that when enough wisdom had been gained they, in turn, could become "Godlike" themselves.  This was the reason for creation.   This is the means through which "God" expresses.  It is the "life of God".  

It is not possible for us to heal another unless we can first become proficient, not in energy manipulation (anyone can do that), but in creating.  But there is another reason that sometimes a healing is effected.  The combined wills of both the healer and the subject, helped by additional focus by others,  results in a "door of reliability" opening into the plane of souls where the souls of all the concerned are drawn into action.  The combination of all this sometimes does true wonders.  It is this which lays behind the practice of praying for succor that religions teach.  Sure... God is the final source but the work is done by lesser beings.   The above is the reason that sometimes, for instance in an evangelical Christian revival session, a real healing occurs.  It is real.  There is a reason and a method.  It is not magic.  It is not something from nothing.  What it is is the creative force of God being invoked by a mass of believing, willful, human beings.   So we can see that healings are not limited to miracles or to the spiritual practicioner.   There is only a single source in the universe.  We all have tentative access to it.  We are all creators in waiting.

Didn't Jesus say something like "As you see me do you, too, will do".   Something like that.  In this statement he tells us all of our destiny as creators/healers.

OK back to the methods.   When incarnated it is necessary for us to enter a state of meditation so that we can make correct access to the plane upon we will work.  Since we cannot do this if we are in a state of emotional distress we must, as you indicate, deal with those things first.  You say that anger earlier in the day might harm your effectiveness.  This is probably true but not for sure.   The advanced soul is able to eliminate anger in a few seconds of time when ever he/she wants to.  This is truer the more evolved we become.  A master soul on Earth seldom is angry but if an occasion arises he/she expresses and a microsecond later is calm and quiet and capable again.  Wouldn't it be nice if we all could do that? 

When I say "meditation" I don't mean sitting and zoning out.  The practiced disciple may enter the meditative state at any time with only a moments preparation, with only a single breath.  Inhale, exhale... in deep meditation.  This sort of "waking meditation" is just as effective as a semi-sleeping one.   I know this is true.

You mention having "two minds".  Good.  This indicates you are aware of the division 'tween soul and personality and are probably well able to know which one you must use.  It follows then that you have a quick understanding of what is to be done and how to do it.  I  think I am correct in this summation.  

One suggestion if you are open to it.   We do not "send energy".  What we send is force from our minds, our soul minds, which is impressed upon a particular spiritual or meta-spiritual plane where it attracts to it the appropriate energies and does the directed work.  Substance, be it physical, ethereal, astral, mental or above, is made up of particular bands of energies.  They appear as successions of waves sorted out into "frequencies" which resonate on each of the many planes in creation.  Forces from without are the creative agents and the source of all is the mind, great or small. 

We humans are on this planet.  New human souls are being created all the time.  At any moment perfected souls are leaving and beginner souls are arriving.  The Earth is a busy place.  The turmoil we all witness is directly related to the incessant activity of all the little minds fighting and hoping to win through to eventual "resurrection". 

A note about sacred geometry and related topics.  Those are creations in ethereal matter and are seen and manipulated traditional by "priests and other kinds of magicians be they of either the White or Black brotherhoods.  No need to be concerned with anything metaphysical or metaspiritual for that matter.  Leave them both behind and go to where the real power is.  Through meditation we access our souls.  Through our souls we access our guides.  Through our guides we access the teachers and through them help to us is never refused.

Note about energy.  There are all sorts of energy.  All of the planes of existence are no more than collections of energy of specific vibrational bands.  This energy is the foundation of the matter on a particular plane.  Thus physical energy (Newtonian) is the basis of physical matter.  Ethereal energy underlays ethereal matter.  Astral energy forms astral matter.   Mental energy makes up mental matter of which human and animal souls are made.  This changes a bit as we ascend higher and at the highest levels we are incapable of comprehending.  Since our minds are finite there are barriers beyond which we go only after the higher, the fifth initiation is taken.  Remembering that it is "force" and not energy that is transmitted we begin to understand metaphysical, metaspiritual and spiritual mechanics.

I write the above in great sincerity.  I hope it is well received.

Blessings to us all...

[tribunalofmercy]

Hello, Bartholomew - welcome It's nice to meet you. Thank you for taking the time to share such detailed information on the healing process; there are many here at the GodLight who are like-minded and will enjoy conversing with you about these things! Yes, it is much to consider. Again, thank you for sharing of your knowledge.

Mary Anne

[Bartholomew]

Thanks I'm hoping for a mutually beneficial association. Am I the only one on this forum who is not in the UK? I'm in the -8 time zone here in Vancouver.

[gruntal]

I'm on the low desert in Southern California U.S.A. ; about 75 miles inland from the Pacific Ocean. I'v made radio contacts as far as Ontario, Canada using my marvelous machines on 28.120 MHz. It seems half the people here speak Spanish ( I do not ). But my mind is wondering in ways I never dreamed of before that isn't dependent on much of any of this. So much for technology and reason ....

Geometry is actually comforting to me; that is why I have a mineral collection. But too much comfort is an illusion. If you are paralysed how do know if something is wrong with you?

[Bartholomew]

Mar 8, 2015 2:38:39 GMT gruntal said:

I'm on the low desert in Southern California U.S.A. ; about 75 miles inland from the Pacific Ocean. I'v made radio contacts as far as Ontario, Canada using my marvelous machines on 28.120 MHz. It seems half the people here speak Spanish ( I do not ). But my mind is wondering in ways I never dreamed of before that isn't dependent on much of any of this. So much for technology and reason ....

Geometry is actually comforting to me; that is why I have a mineral collection. But too much comfort is an illusion. If you are paralysed how do know if something is wrong with you?

Well we're in the same time zone then.  

28 megs?   Isn't that just above the CB band?   10 meters amateur?   If so talking to Ontario is a good one.