DO YOU HAVE TO LEAVE YOUR FAMILY?!?!?!?!?!??

[newlyawakened]

It may not be true but I have read that you have to leave your family and lead your own journey

I care and love my family too much to even consider leaving them or loving anyone or anything including myself or god anywhere near as much as my family and I admit that yes I may be selfish for feeling this way but I dont want to change

Is it true that once you start to awaken it is too late to end it and go back to how things were before? Im scared and I feel like maybe I have made a very stupid unthought about and unplanned very dangerous decision and I may have done something that I didnt truly want and I wasnt ready for

My higher self told me during my first contact that ego fights to get back in and i must not allow it but I must not allow it so doesnt that mean I can just let my ego in if I want to reverse the progress?

I dont think im very far into the awakening and I find it stupid that I would definately have to leave my family so these cant be the cases right?!?!?!

I also read that the awakening can be too much for some people and mess their minds up if their not ready and strong enough and Im honestly starting to believe that I cant handle this and its too much

I made the wrong decision and dont want to continue

I knew that a lot of people that were in mental hospitals were there because they had a spiritual awakening and had spiritual awakenings were because of drugs and their minds were completeley messed up and gone crazy but I thought that it was because they had an awakening without knowledge or choice and so it was too much and that drug using is ok and safe for spiritualists but now im a bit paranoid (because I get paranoid about stuff due to my disabilities) that im going to end up with a messed up mind in a hospital especially because of how messed up my mind was to begin with nevermind drug using

am I doomed???

I feel it may help if I tell you that I had my first fully blown conversation with my inner self while I was high and awake for about 50 hours on amphetamine and being tired(as amphetamine comedowns and being tired made my third eye work a lot better) I understand it may just be called psychosis because science doesnt believe or understand spirituality but do you think I may just be imagining this due to my mind being so stressed and being in psychosis and its not really an awakening???

I am very scared and dont know what to do most of me feel like I can continue and be fine or discontinue and be fine but im extremely paranoid ;'( im lost and desperately need guidance

also all the out of the blue stupid guilt and intensified sporadic mood swings I have been experiencing are they because I had started to awaken? I cant even remember if that started before or after my awakening

[newlyawakened]

And do I forget who I am and become someone else that doesnt even know their familys or remember them???

[sparklekaz]

Hi Newlyawakened,

Our relationship with our families is a very precious one, and any spiritual path that demanded that, is in my opinion very wrong. I don't know where you've heard this, but it sounds as if you may have taken certain phrases out of context. Sometimes people talk about their friends dropping away because they find as their interests change, they drift apart. I've never heard it said that you must leave loved ones behind. Indeed, I believe, it is through our relationships with family and loved ones, we learn the most valuable spiritual lessons. Through our interaction with them, we come to understand the true meaning of unconditional love, selflessness and compassion.

The spiritual path is more of an inner journey, as I understand it. That as you come to learn more about yourself and gain in insight and understanding, the world opens up to us in a more vivid way. They say that once you are awakened to your spiritual essence, there is no going back. But only because you are changed by it. You are more aware and sensitive. To be self realized, in as much as you see the connection between all things, and the consequences of your actions. The idea being hopefully, you no longer act rashly or impulsively without thought of how what you do affects others. Being awakened I believe happens in stages, as you learn and grow, your awakened state will open you up even more. I suppose, if your interest in self growth and spiritual matters wanes, you may become less thoughtful and sensitive. You may revert back to old habits of behaviour. It is always up to you how you act and treat others.

This is not mean't to create conflict or worry within you. It is all a learning experience. Please do not worry so much. Use your own common sense. Try to keep things in context and proportion. If you are going to feel so anxious about this, maybe you should take a step back. Just enjoy being young and going out with your friends and forget about it. There is no time scale on this kind of thing. We progress at a rate that is comfortable for us. You clearly seem uncomfortable at this point, suggesting you should slow down. I don't know what kind of books you are reading, or who you are talking to. But your anxious state would suggest to me that they are not helping. Stay away from anything that makes you feel nervous or uncomfortable.

Love and light
Kaz

[newlyawakened]

Thanks sooooo much for your answer it helped me steady my mind and calm my emotions down a lot.

I am going to stop the process until I truly 100% feel able to complete it.

[Ishtahota]

The ego is something that you can not live without. It keeps the body breathing while you are asleep. It keeps your heart beating. It is part of the animal body that we exist in. It is responsible for reacting to the outside world without any thought. The mystic as ask the question " who serves whom" , do I serve my ego or does it serve me.

Doing your personal work can open you up naturally, and drugs can also open you up, but you run the chance of blowing like a fuse. Something's can not be fixed. The drugs are only a TEMPORARY SHORTCUT. If you want to keep the knowledge you have to earn it.

When people are not going after their personal growth straight up spirit, the subconscious, and the higher self have us learning the hard way through drama and conflict with friends and family. We will leave a lot of our friends when we start to really grow. Most of us do not leave our families, but we are not drawn into their dramas and conflicts like we were in the beginning before we started to grow. In that sense we do leave our family behind, but that does not mean they cannot catch up to us later on. Most families grow in a herd as a group and not as individuals. When you awaken you no longer follow the herd mentality.

[Deleted]

Father and mother are guides for me same like acharya. Its not gonna help it to leave guides.

[David Byrne]

How did you contact your higher self ?

[donq]

Hi newlyawakened,

From a spiritual practice I have been into for a very long time, it could be sum up into 3 important things:

Don’t do any bad thing,
Do only good thing
and clear/purify your mind. :-)

So, leaving our families might be a good thing (in a very rare case, for example you become a monk, nun, priest etc.) but it’s also inevitably a bad thing in itself, too (making your family suffer). Only we ourselves could tell it’s worth to do that or not (for the greater good but not for our ego). Besides, if we did that, could we purify our minds because of that or not?

There’s a saying in Zen,

“Before I had studied Zen for thirty years, I saw mountains as mountains, and waters as waters. When I arrived at a more intimate knowledge, I came to the point where I saw that mountains are not mountains, and waters are not waters. But now that I have got its very substance I am at rest. For it's just that I see mountains once again as mountains, and waters once again as waters.”
See? In the final stage, our family are still our family, then why bother to leave them in the first place? :-)