Post by gruntal on Aug 27, 2013 0:24:27 GMT
I seem to be more and more immersed in my culture of death. People I shook hands with last month are gone or practically so in a vegetative state. Me next? The phone rings constantly: solar heating, carpet cleaning, refinace my mortgage ( I didnt know I had one), my computer has a virus (amazing they would know that or even if I had a computer) , are you still alive and we wanted to check! The last call is awkward because I assume it is another human predator and it turns out to be a concerned friend.
My response is rather self centered fow now. I don't feel very good. Things don't seem very important or they seem hysterically so when you don't feel good. Hard to think right. I might need potassium supliments. The others go thru the gambit of anything and everything. There is no god so when it ends it ends. There is a god and an afterlife and you get to meet all your transitioned relatives. In the mean time do it all while you still can or do nothing and wait for the Heavenly reunion.
Oddly it turns out to be the same.
Human beings just hate to let go. Not the physical but the daily mundane precedure that keeps us busy. THAT must have some meaning or why do we go on? In that atheism and spirituality merge. Because there are still bills to pay and things to do and places to be. And not to mention people to contact if not to be care giver to. Either way you do things now to vindicate yourself and what you belive in. I don't have a list of people I wish to meet after death and don't seem to care if I am on their wish list. Very awkward although there is one saving grace: I do try. If it goes on I can say I tried and it mattered. Nothing to be ashamed of in that respect.
Poor Bruce. I never dreamed when I shook his hands that was the last time I would ever see him. But if we meet in the afterlife should I tell him I saw a tarantula by the dog's dish after he was through cleaning out my garage? He might laugh or get mad if he might have gotten bitten but it doesn't matter now. The last thing I want is a seance or medium to find out if it is so. Just not interested. But life - for me - is going on. Too many things to do or complete to quit just yet.
Besides if I live long enough I might discover what it all means. Do the even the spirits know that?
My response is rather self centered fow now. I don't feel very good. Things don't seem very important or they seem hysterically so when you don't feel good. Hard to think right. I might need potassium supliments. The others go thru the gambit of anything and everything. There is no god so when it ends it ends. There is a god and an afterlife and you get to meet all your transitioned relatives. In the mean time do it all while you still can or do nothing and wait for the Heavenly reunion.
Oddly it turns out to be the same.
Human beings just hate to let go. Not the physical but the daily mundane precedure that keeps us busy. THAT must have some meaning or why do we go on? In that atheism and spirituality merge. Because there are still bills to pay and things to do and places to be. And not to mention people to contact if not to be care giver to. Either way you do things now to vindicate yourself and what you belive in. I don't have a list of people I wish to meet after death and don't seem to care if I am on their wish list. Very awkward although there is one saving grace: I do try. If it goes on I can say I tried and it mattered. Nothing to be ashamed of in that respect.
Poor Bruce. I never dreamed when I shook his hands that was the last time I would ever see him. But if we meet in the afterlife should I tell him I saw a tarantula by the dog's dish after he was through cleaning out my garage? He might laugh or get mad if he might have gotten bitten but it doesn't matter now. The last thing I want is a seance or medium to find out if it is so. Just not interested. But life - for me - is going on. Too many things to do or complete to quit just yet.
Besides if I live long enough I might discover what it all means. Do the even the spirits know that?
