What do you do when nothing makes sense?

[clara927]

What do you do when religions and even spiritual practices stop making sense? Every belief system has stopped making sense to me, even the belief in nothing. Or maybe so many narratives make logical sense I don't know which one to believe. I've thought of just picking one out of hat just to have the feeling of comfort. I used to think about people who would accept faith blindly, but looking back I don't think it was naiveté, especially not if they were older, but it probably was that they were tired. Maybe they were just tired of the mental stress and they just wanted to feel comfort. Maybe Im comfortable with the idea that Jesus is coming to save me because Im tired of thinking so hard? Or because Im afraid the answers will always be obscured and that everyone is lying to me.

I thought ok if life is just about feeling good and doing as little harm as possible, what s the point of thinking so much? Why are we trying so much why are we studying so much what is it we are trying to find and is it possible to find it on earth?

I also want to add that I think a lot about how can I reconcile certain thoughts. A lot of the thoughts I have that I have been told are natural, still in my head I feel like they are wrong. I don't know it just doesnt coincide with my ideas about God maybe because I feel like God is something like us, and I think ok God wouldn't have thoughts like this.. and then I think Im a hypocrite if I were to even step into church and have thoughts like this. Maybe nothing in the Bible says its explicitly wrong, but it just feels incongruous. And if God isn't real, then does that mean a lot of the things are thought were wrong aren't? Ok I know it sound like rambling its just that Im trying to explain something as best as I can.

[Ishtahota]

Starting to feel the BIG EMPTY are you. That is a real good place to be believe it or not. Now you know what does not feel right and what does not feed your soul. The journey is to learn to reconnect and develope conscious contact, it is not to let someone else stand between you and that connection. Happiness is becoming who you really are and not who others think you should be. All of the answers that you are looking for are inside of you. Follow you heart and not you ego and you will find authentic self.

[gruntal]

Sometimes you find yourself at a certain part of the sine wave and all you can do is rest and recuperate until it is time to again move forward.

Sometimes you need to realize nothing is guaranteed to even exist. To say it must be is to imply success is everywhere. Obviously failure is more pervasive; nobody in the world is fundamentally any better then you are; you are not surrounded by superior angelic beings; struggle is universal and is everywhere you look; the oft excuse is just that we need to try a little harder; be a little bit more; wait a little bit longer. How many thousands of years have humans tried that? It is our tendency to survive but our fate to be deluded at least sometimes; it can easily lead to our demise if we so wish and since it apparently has always been that way it realistically isn't going to go away very soon. But we haven't managed to destroy ourselves yet as a group and have managed to progress. So that implies there is a way out. We are not doomed.

When I get confused (which is easy for me now) I just go into survival mode as that is the only thing I am genetically enabled to do. Happily Common Sense is self contagious. If eating and drinking and sleeping feels good then remember what that feels like and use that feeling to test other things you don't understand as yet. I have never been betrayed by feelings yet - I have only discovered by experience NEW feelings I never knew existed and lead me to better experiences.