Post by gruntal on Dec 13, 2012 17:26:36 GMT
It's funny how the world works and some things seem so tremendous and other things don't merit much attention. And yet they HAVE to be dealt with. That itself can be vexing and part of the problem. Like the athlete we can't go around; we need to jump over hurdles as they occur.
I think we all have goals and/or milestones where we meet expectations or over come great difficulties or just experience life as it is. Starting with potty training it just gets worst until we near death. One we don't want to do and the other we don't want to face. But what happens in between? All the more telling is that some of this can only solved by our own willingness to think things out as they effect us. No help; lots of advice and all for nothing: the only thing for sure is that the ball is in your court and it is up to you to decide how and what to do.
The question is what; particularly as spiritual people; have you encountered that made you feel so uncomfortable in that past? That now you don't blink an eye at. A hurdle you jumped over and now can jump over more of the same as long as they come at you.
I remember as a kid; well actually in college; my Sunday School class had a project to engage in a huge rally; after knocking at the doors of all the students in the city and handing out invitations; said rally would be packed and utterly enthrall all to instantly become Christians and naturally attend out marvelous Sunday School class. As a prelude we were all supposed to go out and personally deliver all those tracts or brochures cementing out devotion to G*d and Jesus Christ. Being pathologically shy I passed on that or even bleating out an excuse for not doing so. It took me years to realize the leaders of that Sunday School class were just prime egomaniacs intent on inflating their ego to have the most followers. It wasn't really necessary or even desirable to have the class overflowing with people ; meeting the needs of those few present was worth it alone.
Now as a mature (if not old and bitter) person I do belong to some clubs and organizations. But certainly not that particular church. I do not think of the clubs I now join as embarrassments or burdens; I willingly do things for their betterment because what makes them better obviously helps me to. If some things seem awkward or uncomfortable I just assume it was also that way for the others before they broke down and did what was necessary to build and grow. But ego trips I am done with. No matter who or what you are: I don't exist for your benefit. And I do not require you to exist for mine. I can honestly leave any scenario in an instant if I feel they are just looking for me as cannon fodder. With not even a shred of guilt. But at one time I just didn't know what to do.
It was a hurdle I had to face. I am sure there will be more to come. I would like to think I am here and everywhere else because I WANT to be and not because I was too shy to say no or I'll have to think about it or what ever other excuse to just be an enabler.
I think we all have goals and/or milestones where we meet expectations or over come great difficulties or just experience life as it is. Starting with potty training it just gets worst until we near death. One we don't want to do and the other we don't want to face. But what happens in between? All the more telling is that some of this can only solved by our own willingness to think things out as they effect us. No help; lots of advice and all for nothing: the only thing for sure is that the ball is in your court and it is up to you to decide how and what to do.
The question is what; particularly as spiritual people; have you encountered that made you feel so uncomfortable in that past? That now you don't blink an eye at. A hurdle you jumped over and now can jump over more of the same as long as they come at you.
I remember as a kid; well actually in college; my Sunday School class had a project to engage in a huge rally; after knocking at the doors of all the students in the city and handing out invitations; said rally would be packed and utterly enthrall all to instantly become Christians and naturally attend out marvelous Sunday School class. As a prelude we were all supposed to go out and personally deliver all those tracts or brochures cementing out devotion to G*d and Jesus Christ. Being pathologically shy I passed on that or even bleating out an excuse for not doing so. It took me years to realize the leaders of that Sunday School class were just prime egomaniacs intent on inflating their ego to have the most followers. It wasn't really necessary or even desirable to have the class overflowing with people ; meeting the needs of those few present was worth it alone.
Now as a mature (if not old and bitter) person I do belong to some clubs and organizations. But certainly not that particular church. I do not think of the clubs I now join as embarrassments or burdens; I willingly do things for their betterment because what makes them better obviously helps me to. If some things seem awkward or uncomfortable I just assume it was also that way for the others before they broke down and did what was necessary to build and grow. But ego trips I am done with. No matter who or what you are: I don't exist for your benefit. And I do not require you to exist for mine. I can honestly leave any scenario in an instant if I feel they are just looking for me as cannon fodder. With not even a shred of guilt. But at one time I just didn't know what to do.
It was a hurdle I had to face. I am sure there will be more to come. I would like to think I am here and everywhere else because I WANT to be and not because I was too shy to say no or I'll have to think about it or what ever other excuse to just be an enabler.
