|
|
Post by jessiethecorgi on Jun 12, 2012 0:59:33 GMT
there is a warlock rewriting my memories. it is trying to sicc me on my healer. it also somewhat undoes the healing because i get confused about what i was taught. i have been in a myriad since i was two and just came out of it at age 46. when i am introduced to normalcy like tattoos i go insane because i have sabotage programing and also realize what i have missed.
|
|
cyberangel
~ As above so below, as within so without ~
Posts: 818
|
Post by cyberangel on Jun 12, 2012 4:39:27 GMT
Dear Jessie, I am sending you lots of (((((((HUGS)))))))) I can sense your uncertainty and despair my friend. Sometimes we can make ourselves ill by over doing or over thinking things. I feel your mind is now in overdrive and you are unable to slow it down by yourself and you must seek help from outside of yourself. Sometimes we can push ourselves and our thoughts too far and it is a fine line, but if we do cross the line everything can seem very different and sometimes we are unaware we have crossed over the line and can get confused. I personally do not believe that anyone has that power to rewrite our memories except for ourselves, and even then it is not a matter of rewriting more of confusing ourselves. I wish dear Jessie I knew the right words to say or I could help you, but I cannot. I can however see that you are suffering. Is there someone you know who you could talk to about what you are experiencing? I think you have mentioned a therapist before, maybe they could help you? I will certainly pray for you and hope you can find peace of mind again. Please let us know how you get on. God Bless you dear friend Love & Light  |
|
sparklekaz
Someone asked me.. What is your religion? I said, "All the paths that lead to the light".
Posts: 3,658
|
Post by sparklekaz on Jun 12, 2012 13:04:18 GMT
Dear Jessie,
I agree with a lot of what Lorraine has said. You know yourself that you sometimes get stuck in negative and frightening thoughts, especially if you are feeling particularly anxious at this time.
I know you see your counselor regularly. Please tell her how you are feeling. These kind of thoughts are very stressful and the more worked up you become, the more real it can seem. But I agree with Lorraine, no one outside of ourselves can influence or change our thoughts or memory.
What you need is to ground yourself. Do something that soothes and calms you. Make sure you are not over doing it with the caffiene drinks and your special herbal teas. I know you love to draw and paint. Focusing on doing something like this, will help you to switch off from those thoughts that are tormenting you at the moment and bring you back to reality.
Try and get into chat if you can, I will watch out for you. You know the new times are 1pm to 4pm for your time zone. It is 6 till 9pm here in the UK. We have been staying open later, if the room is busy, so give it a try even if it is past 4pm for you.
Take care my friend, thinking of you and sending love and healing your way.
Love and light Kaz |
|
|
|
Post by tinamarie on Jun 12, 2012 13:46:47 GMT
Hello Jessie ... I have been reading your posts over the last while, and is sounds like you have a "Battlefield of the Mind" going on in full force. I am not sure if you have heard of that book, but it was one of the very first one's I read when I started to work on my relationship with God. You are one of the most open-minded people I know, and I can tell you are always willing to try new ideas. The author is Joyce Meyer, and even though its been a few years since I've read "Battlefied of the Mind", there are times when I am reminded of her words from the book, and I suppose that is what learning is all about ... remembering what we have been taught and what we know works for us.
That brings me to something else I would like to suggest ... when you are able to sit quiet, try to remember what you KNOW works for you. Like Kaz said, grounding yourself and focussing on the activities that you KNOW help you. I capitalize that word Jessie, because I am fairly certain you Do know what works for you, however a part of you is fighting that, and I know Jessiethecorgi would much rather have his belly rubbed than be snarling at shadows in the dark.
Peace to you
Tina-M.
|
|
|
|
Post by jessiethecorgi on Jun 14, 2012 7:40:26 GMT
Thank you everybody for your help. i am doing really good. i have crossed the threshold and i am now a healer. i have new crystals and spend most of my time praying for people who need help. the universe is definitely reflecting back. i have gotten enormous healing and can see clearly now. thank you once again.
|
|
