Help dreams are getting more and more emotional

[zady]

First of all I want to apologize for my English, because my first language it’s Spanish, but at the same time I really I being having these dreams lately and I need help with these one.

Today I had a very significant dream. In this dream I was socializing with my ex fiancée who really broke my heart in pieces (because I allow him…by loving him more than I ever loved myself) for 3 and half years. I end up breaking of our engagement with him; however, I left him loving him deeply and I didn’t do anything to show him that I loved him. I stayed quiet and try to move on. He immediately, within a month stated dating someone else and moved with her. Within 5 months of them dating he proposed and within a year he married her. That left my life in shatters. I quit my job and moved again to Puerto Rico to be with my family. I understood that one of the reasons that we broke up it’s because I wanted to believe in God and I felt I was called to serve God. He dislikes the idea of God…so during that time I started searching from God. Because I really needed God in my life. So today I was meditating in front of water in Puerto Rico and I realized that around this time of the year was when I broke up my engagement. That brings me sadness because I being unable to connect with someone in 2 years. I probably have dated 20 people within the last two years and I don’t see to “fall in love”. Anyways, I felt I needed to explain a little about my life before I started talking about the dream.


In the dream I was socializing with my ex. We arrived to a huge dark house and sited and started chatting with him. In our chat he insinuated that I didn’t care when he started his relationship with his now wife (Jen) and I laugh and said “yeah right… I cared but I didn’t want to be selfish and he was shocked in the dream”. He said...yeah but it’s not like you suffer or anything right?. I laugh again and accepted that I suffered deeply, so he tried to approach me and i ran to another part of the house. In another room we sited again and then out of nowhere his mother appeared in the dream and told us that we needed to stop talking about us and letting it go. So I felt embarrassed and I said I should go and his mom said yeah. I ran again to the other room at the house. The room was dark and there was people walking around, but I couldn’t see them. I looked to see if my ex was in the hallway or followed me and then I see that my ex fiancée brother comes walking towards me with one of his guy friends. He tells me that I should go. I felt so humiliated and I started waking out of the house.

Out of nowhere I’m driving a car. I suddenly freak out and end up in someone house roof/ceiling. The family that it was inside the house gets out of the house and starts telling me how traumatized his daughter is and how much damage I cause to his family. I go into their house to try to talk to them and apologize. They’re house it’s beside a house that i being before (in walking lif). Anyways I sit with them and I felt so bad that I landed at their house. So they were showing me pictures of his daughter and how traumatize she was, but in all the pictures she was happy. I was confused, but I listen to them. So while I’m at the living room, with this family my mom it’s there too. They started talking about suing me and taking legal action towards me. I tell them I’m student and I’m broke (true…I’m like that in walking life) but in my mind I’m thinking about some money that I have in the bank. Then the family says, but your mom said that u work in a bakery. I look at my mom and tell her “Why are you lying??Tell them the truth” My mom says “ohhh I said that so you because I didn’t want you to think my daughter it’s just studying” I tell my mom... “Mom I’m doing my PhD!!! ”(true in walking life) My mom accepted that she lied. At the end of the dream I just kind of felt that I was not going to be sue and felt relieve. However, I was walking outside this family house I saw the brother of my ex laughing at the whole incident.

I know I wrote a lot and some of it might be very difficult to understand :/

[sparklekaz]

Hello Zady,

Welcome to The Dream Board.

In dream symbology, the house, represents YOU the dreamer. The Self. Where you are in the house and what is going on, provides you with much insights into the many facets of your life. Each room representing different aspects of you. If you walk into a darkened house, or rooms that are unknown to you, it indicates that you are 'exploring' many unknown different parts of the self, of you.

In the dream you are talking to an ex boyfriend. Males in our dreams, can represent our own male energy. Or suggesting to us, that it might be useful to focus more on the so called typical masculine characteristics. Being more forceful in waking life. Standing up for ourselves more, being more assertive and firmer about expressing what we want and need out of life.

To see a man in our dreams also is symbolic of our ideal man. They exhibit traits and qualities we admire and sometimes qualities we wish to emulate. On the other hand, they might also be showing us negative aspects of ourselves, drawing our attention to them. It is said, that those we are drawn to, are often mirrors for us to look at, reflecting back at us what we want to see as well as what we don't want to see. Think about this Zady, and see if it is meaningful to you.

When we see an ex partner in our dreams, it can also indicate that there is still some unresolved issues from this relationship that we need to work on. Even if it is simply to accept, that it is behind us now and it is time to move forward with our lives. To let go! I would say, that the subject of your conversation, shows that there is still a lot of emotional hurt within you. You are trying to express these thoughts and feelings within the dream, because maybe in waking life, you either have never had the opportunity to speak what was in your mind, or did have and were unable to be honest about how you felt. Doing it within the dream, is a safe place for you to do this. The unconscious is allowing all these thoughts to move towards the surface, rising up from where you had buried them.

This is actually a very healing process for you Zady, though you might not think so. When we keep things buried deep within, they fester and can cause problems in our lives. Holding on to a past love and not accepting that it is gone. Being fearful of loving again of moving forward and forming other relationships. So by allowing these feelings to rise up and give voice to them, even in a dream, is a form of release and the beginning of acceptance on your part. Only you know zady if this is meaningful to you.

In the dream an older women appears. You say it is his mother. In dream symbology, mother figures represent the older wiser female energy of the dreamer. As in dreams Zady, all these people are simply aspects of you. The mother figure is also nurturing and loving. I would say, this older, wiser, nurturing aspect of you, is trying to tell you, that it is time to "stop talking about this" and let it go. Let go of recriminations, let go of who said what and who felt what, simply let it go.

In the dream you are driving a car. Car's are modes of transport. In dream symbology, modes of transport represent the personal energy of the dreamer. How much energy is available to you. So the size, shape and colour of the dream vehicle gives you information about your personal energy. The fact that you are driving the car, shows that you are in control of your life. You are in the driving seat of your life.

In the dream, you lose control and the car ends up damaging someone else's house. Now even though the house in the dream is someone else's, it is still your house. This is your dream. Losing control, like this, indicates to me that you are feeling like this in waking life. The damage is done to the roof, the ceiling of the house. Symbolically the ceiling and the roof are connected to the psyche and spiritual awareness. So a very sensitive aspect of the self. Its where your feelings, emotions, intuitive area's are. So I would say even if you hadn't stated it in your dream, that you are feeling extremely emotional right now.

When we feel like this, it is only too easy, to spend a lot of time in introspection, thinking back of how things were. The more time and energy we spend focusing on something, the more wound up we become, the more unhappy we become, especially if the memories are unhappy and stressful ones. So here I feel the dream is showing you what will happen if you do not slow down. Be caring and compassionate to yourself. Nurture yourself and show yourself love. Accept love, from those around you who care for you very much. Especially your mother and family. Having an accident and crashing, represents damaging your energy. Damaging yourself!

The family are telling you how the daughter of the house had been injured. This daughter is you. You have been injured. You say, you see the family photographs and they show a smiling girl. No one can tell by looking at her, that she has been harmed. But they insist that she has been. This for me is showing that though to the outside world, you look and behave as if everything is alright. Inside, you are hurting and in pain. The damage cannot be seen on the surface.

The rest of the dream, I would say is connected to your own worries and fears about your current financial situation, and a need to have to justify yourself to others. If in real life, you are doing a PhD. Then you should be extremely proud of yourself. You are a committed and hard working person. I am sure your parents are extremely proud of you too. Often when we get caught up in a negative cycle, we stop seeing all the good qualities about ourselves, and only focus on our perceived shortcomings. Currently not working, currently not having much money.

The dream is all about feelings of being pushed away and rejected. This is about how you feel about yourself. Your lack of self love and self esteem. You are loved, you do have so much going for you. Think about those things, and take the message that the dream is trying to give you. Let go of the past and move forward. Looking back makes you terribly unhappy. Look forward, to all the wonderful opportunities that are ahead of you. Do not be afraid to ask for help. In fact, I would encourage you to actively seek it.

This is only my interpretation of your dream Zady. Please only take from it what is meaningful to you and leave the rest. If you would to ask any questions or talk about it, please do not hesitate to ask. I would appreciate your feedback.

Love and light
Kaz

[zady]

Hey Kaz

Tears came out of my eyes when I was reading your post. Thanks for your time to answer my post I have to say that I read your post like 5 times. Each time I felt completely different and now I feel completely blessed by your interpretation of my dream. The only and truly feedback that I can give you it’s that you are definitely gifted spiritually. Because we don’t know each other and when I read your message I felt like you knew something I didn’t know. Keep working hard, because I know you already doing it. It’s amazing when I’m able to experience these kind of things because I realize how important it’s to attempt to be spiritually awake.
Thanks for being such a great woman! 10000000000000000 blessings, Zady

[DeeUSA]

Hi Zady,

I just wanted to say I agree with you totally about Kaz's gift that she unselfishly shares with us. Yes, I'm like you. I sit and read her interpretation at least 4 times before I respond back. Each time I read it I get new meaning to what she interpretes. Its funny, I always think the dreams mean one thing and then find out it completely means something different! lol

Anyway I just want to chime in with you in saying thank you so much Kaz for sharing your "Gift" with us.

Many blessings
Dee

[zady]

Yessss she is amazing... there's some people who are definetely gifeted and she issss Thanks for reading Dee...hugs and blssings !