Post by bumblebee on Aug 13, 2011 21:34:22 GMT
Hey there,
I have a question, I already tried to ask it earlier in the chat room, because some people where talking about it already (tuning in). But the room was very busy, and I could not explain it well.
I just had a couple of very intense days, and lots of memories came up through dreams and other ways.
One of them is about a moment when I was younger, about 13 I think.
A person had taken money from me, the only money I had ever had and saved up for years. When I was at that age I 'never' bought anything, I always saved up the little amounts of money I got sometimes. All that I had, was the money that I had saved up in that way, for my entire life as a child. I knew this person had taken it, even though there was no reason to think it, but no one believed me. And people where even angry with me because I said this person had taken it.
I went to this persons house in an anger explosion (not sure what else to call it) and took my parents with me, and stood there in the middle of it, fuming, crying and shaking with anger. I just knew he had done it, but could not prove it.
While I stood there, so terribly angry, I looked around while standing on the spot, and I sort of scanned the whole room. At one spot my eyes locked on a cuddly toy. And I knew the money was inside it without a doubt, I just knew it.
I took the toy, threw it to the floor before this persons feet and did not say a word. He did not say anything either.
When I picked it up to take the money out of it, it was in there. And everyone in the room saw it.
I figured I could not have known that in a normal way, and that everyone knew it. And I figured it had happened because of the anger.
No one talked about it though, and I did not talk about it either and I more or less forgot about it because it was a weird, painful and hard moment. No sorry from anyone, not a word. That was hurtful too.
And I guess I tried to forget that or something, maybe also because I don't feel proud of feeling so angry.
But now, I have questions about it.
Because everyone always says that medium ship happens when you meditate, quiet your mind, when a person is balanced. I was certainly not in a quiet state of mind, nor any of the other things.
The only thing that I know is that I suddenly could focus extremely well, because it was fueled by anger. I also knew how to do it, scanning everything around me. Somehow I could do that.
Is that what medium ship is about? the ability to focus 'extremely strongly' on the thing that you want to know?
Of course its better not to be angry, I understand that.
Its extremely rare for me to be so angry, it happened because no one believed me and the person that had taken it made me look like the liar constantly. While he knew it was what he had done, and that I had saved up that money by 'never ever' spending anything my whole life. That was just too much for me to accept, lol.
Anyway, I was just trying to understand it, and to make sense of how mediumship happens.
I have a question, I already tried to ask it earlier in the chat room, because some people where talking about it already (tuning in). But the room was very busy, and I could not explain it well.
I just had a couple of very intense days, and lots of memories came up through dreams and other ways.
One of them is about a moment when I was younger, about 13 I think.
A person had taken money from me, the only money I had ever had and saved up for years. When I was at that age I 'never' bought anything, I always saved up the little amounts of money I got sometimes. All that I had, was the money that I had saved up in that way, for my entire life as a child. I knew this person had taken it, even though there was no reason to think it, but no one believed me. And people where even angry with me because I said this person had taken it.
I went to this persons house in an anger explosion (not sure what else to call it) and took my parents with me, and stood there in the middle of it, fuming, crying and shaking with anger. I just knew he had done it, but could not prove it.
While I stood there, so terribly angry, I looked around while standing on the spot, and I sort of scanned the whole room. At one spot my eyes locked on a cuddly toy. And I knew the money was inside it without a doubt, I just knew it.
I took the toy, threw it to the floor before this persons feet and did not say a word. He did not say anything either.
When I picked it up to take the money out of it, it was in there. And everyone in the room saw it.
I figured I could not have known that in a normal way, and that everyone knew it. And I figured it had happened because of the anger.
No one talked about it though, and I did not talk about it either and I more or less forgot about it because it was a weird, painful and hard moment. No sorry from anyone, not a word. That was hurtful too.
And I guess I tried to forget that or something, maybe also because I don't feel proud of feeling so angry.
But now, I have questions about it.
Because everyone always says that medium ship happens when you meditate, quiet your mind, when a person is balanced. I was certainly not in a quiet state of mind, nor any of the other things.
The only thing that I know is that I suddenly could focus extremely well, because it was fueled by anger. I also knew how to do it, scanning everything around me. Somehow I could do that.
Is that what medium ship is about? the ability to focus 'extremely strongly' on the thing that you want to know?
Of course its better not to be angry, I understand that.
Its extremely rare for me to be so angry, it happened because no one believed me and the person that had taken it made me look like the liar constantly. While he knew it was what he had done, and that I had saved up that money by 'never ever' spending anything my whole life. That was just too much for me to accept, lol.
Anyway, I was just trying to understand it, and to make sense of how mediumship happens.
