weeping and sleeping

[undineworker]

My dear friends....I am going through what I can only describe as an extremely stressful period. Last night, I came home from work nearly comatose with exhaustion and stress....my stomach, which is severely prone to nervous indigestion and acid reflux had been hurting all day, without a break, and I had been so stressed out at work that I could hardly speak by the time I got home. I made dinner along with my family and my husband said something to me...I cant even remember what it was....but the result was that I began to cry....and I didnt stop until I fell asleep exhausted at 8pm. I felt as if I was falling apart....all around me everything was normal and I wanted to be left alone, but was still afraid to be left alone with my own thoughts....I felt that everything I was which was bad or wrong or false was being stripped from me and I was being remade like a fresh hospital bed....I struggled to eat my dinner, then I just curled up on the couch and cried some more.....I felt so low I have never known a feeling like that.....after a while I had no choice but to go to bed and I slept without waking until 1am....I felt as if I was crying because my ego was dying...does that make sense? My ego has always been large....but I have known for some time that to truly help myself and others I had to dissolve my ego and rebuild my life as a new person, someone who is self made, but truly made from the God essence, as in the beginning, when we were all one....we have lost that, really, but I now feel little and humble and very very tiny.....as I awoke this morning, I felt the patter of tiny feet across my bed, and when I got out of bed and went into the hallway to see if it was my cat, I heard a little squeal....then I realised my cat was outside...it was NOT my cat...what was it? I felt that it might have been my poor little Tigger who died over 3 years ago, comforting me, as he used to do when I was feeling down....what do you think?

Thanks for listening and helping me to share.

love and light
Lizzie xx

[sparklekaz]

Dearest Lizzie..

My heart goes out to you my friend...this is your body saying, slow down, let me rest. Too much, stress, too much pushing yourself to the limit. Take time out, please sweetheart. I know that you have a lot of responsibility, but the world will not stop if you take a break. You need time out...

I felt something similar not that long ago..I believe it is something we go thru. when we are experiencing massive inner transformational change. Stuff is bubbling up to the surface, that along with what has been going on at work for you, its become too much. Take this weekend, to basically do absolutely nothing. Pamper and love yourself. Pretend that you, your body is a fragile and precious child. It needs to be loved and given only the healthiest food, the purest water, and absolute rest. If you still feel awful on Monday, go to the doc's and get some time off!!! Promise me sweetie...

I am thinking of you...and I will ask that you have this burden taken from you, the sadness, the pain, you are held in gods love and supported on all sides by the gentlest of his angels.

Lots of love
Karen

[angelight]

Bless you both.

Lizzie, for this difficult time that you are experiencing, Karen for the beautiful words of comfort support and advice.

Take care of yourself Lizzie sweetheart, you are soooooo valuable.

xx

[Leon]

If one wants to follow this spiritual path properly, one needs to be humble. There is no space for egos, when leading a spiritual life. Many a time I have felt like I have got it all sussed then I come crashing back down to earth. Yet I notice after these ocassions when I am brought down, i become a more humble and nicer person, slowly my ego has been stripped away. Yet I have not lost any confidence. I feel stronger because I feel more at one with the world. Instead of feeling like I am above people and their differing ways. Thank god for this experience Lizzie. God is trying to bring you back in line, and this has been achieved as you have took notice of the experience. God bless you sweet heart.....................Leon

[undineworker]

thanks for all your kind words of comfort my friends....I dont know where I would be without all your kindness and caring!

love and light
Lizzie xx