Post by spacecadet702 on Mar 21, 2009 0:06:58 GMT
Hello to all! I've been checking out the chat room for a few days now, so I figured I'd finally sign on here.
Wow... I don't even know where to begin.
All my life I have been...intuitive. As a child, I communicated with spirits in my grandmother's house (they're still there, 25 years later). I spent years and years trying to ignore it and shove it away, because how could anyone ever possibly live a normal life when they can see dead people, right?
I've never found a religion that didn't have several apects that I agreed with and several aspects that I didn't. I pretty much believe what I was born knowing, and believe even stronger the feelings I have that are shared by masses of other people, that have been explained word for word in book after book and experience and experience.
In November, someone incredibly important to me was murdered by a horrible man. His girlfriend survived the 8 gunshot wounds she sustained; he jumped in front of her and took the brunt of it. She was 18 weeks pregnant...the baby also did not make it.
Needless to say, I suddenly had an insatiable need to communicate with him. I needed to know he was okay. I needed to know that everything I believed about life and death and the inbetween was right. In my grief, I heard nothing. There were no messages. There were no signs. He was one of my soul mates, and I knew we could do this but it wasn't happening.
I went with his healing girlfriend to a pyschic. First visit ever. She got him through and it was...comforting, but it pissed me off at the same time because why could she and I couldn't? She explained that it's hard sometimes to talk to those we love. I refused to step down. I kept telling myself, "We were better than that. We're better than this. We can do this."
I started working again with tarot. I asked questions at sessions with the psychic about how to hear him better. And then, I started hearing him. No meditation, no crossing over. Just heard him. Almost constantly. Then I started asking questions about people to confirm it was really him. I was right...always.
We've now established really good communication, and I know I can talk to him whenever I need. He's super busy, though, so I try not to bug him too terribly much.
So now, I'm doing tarot trying to get better and better (my last reading was AMAZING). I am starting to pull other's loved ones through and talking to them (also going AMAZING). And that's about where I'm at. I'm talking with my guide... just one right now. Things are really opening up.
I'm glad I found this site, because it's been really lonely so far. I can talk to my friends about what I'm doing, but none of them DO what I do, so there's a lack of understanding. And I have sooooo many questions.
So, now you all know a little about me. Developing my abilities is my only hobby right now, so I'll probably be on quite a bit. Hope I can find some answers and maybe help others find them too.
Wow... I don't even know where to begin.
All my life I have been...intuitive. As a child, I communicated with spirits in my grandmother's house (they're still there, 25 years later). I spent years and years trying to ignore it and shove it away, because how could anyone ever possibly live a normal life when they can see dead people, right?
I've never found a religion that didn't have several apects that I agreed with and several aspects that I didn't. I pretty much believe what I was born knowing, and believe even stronger the feelings I have that are shared by masses of other people, that have been explained word for word in book after book and experience and experience.
In November, someone incredibly important to me was murdered by a horrible man. His girlfriend survived the 8 gunshot wounds she sustained; he jumped in front of her and took the brunt of it. She was 18 weeks pregnant...the baby also did not make it.
Needless to say, I suddenly had an insatiable need to communicate with him. I needed to know he was okay. I needed to know that everything I believed about life and death and the inbetween was right. In my grief, I heard nothing. There were no messages. There were no signs. He was one of my soul mates, and I knew we could do this but it wasn't happening.
I went with his healing girlfriend to a pyschic. First visit ever. She got him through and it was...comforting, but it pissed me off at the same time because why could she and I couldn't? She explained that it's hard sometimes to talk to those we love. I refused to step down. I kept telling myself, "We were better than that. We're better than this. We can do this."
I started working again with tarot. I asked questions at sessions with the psychic about how to hear him better. And then, I started hearing him. No meditation, no crossing over. Just heard him. Almost constantly. Then I started asking questions about people to confirm it was really him. I was right...always.
We've now established really good communication, and I know I can talk to him whenever I need. He's super busy, though, so I try not to bug him too terribly much.
So now, I'm doing tarot trying to get better and better (my last reading was AMAZING). I am starting to pull other's loved ones through and talking to them (also going AMAZING). And that's about where I'm at. I'm talking with my guide... just one right now. Things are really opening up.
I'm glad I found this site, because it's been really lonely so far. I can talk to my friends about what I'm doing, but none of them DO what I do, so there's a lack of understanding. And I have sooooo many questions.
So, now you all know a little about me. Developing my abilities is my only hobby right now, so I'll probably be on quite a bit. Hope I can find some answers and maybe help others find them too.
Grace
