ilonas dream nov. 9, 08

[nonigirl]

hi, ok i just woke and its 437 am but i wanted to quickly jot this dream down.....


I was getting ready to go to a seminar of one of my favorite authors whom i had been to a seminar twice before....As all the people gathered into the building, which happened to be a big auditorium with many seats, they were filing in fast and all the seats were filling up. Some of the seats were marked as if to be saved by someone who would occupy them, so i was unable to sit in those seats...i searched and found a good seat and sat down.

Since i had come to the seminar on my own, i could take a single seat between others. In a few moments, i decided to get up and search for yet another seat...as i did this, the place got so filled up i could no longer get a seat where i would be able to see the stage and i would now have to take a seat around the side where I would only be able to see Her on a big screen...
A few of us sat there feeling a bit disappointed but still very excited that the show would soon begin..Suddenly a lady came of to the few of us and asked if we wanted to follow her backstage, it was as if she felt she would do something special with us before the show because we were not going to be able to be seen by the Author who would be interacting with the crowd in front of the stage.

Anyways, this lady, who had a microphone attached to her ear, who was in charge of the show, asked us to follow her to the back stage area... I eagerly got out of my seat to follow her and the others came timidly...but followed my lead.... As we entered into the back..it was a huge room and was filled with a big fountain of water and i felt it to be like an aquarium...The woman asked if we wanted to throw pennies into the fountain a few feet away and I eagerly said yes that i did, i looked back at the others as to say , come on! So we all followed the woman over to the fountain..

When we got to the fountain, i dug deeply into my purse to grab some pennies out of the bottom where i always can find lots of change...As i dug deep into the bottom of my purse , i pulled out a handful of coins and along with the coins were a bunch of tiny pieces of paper all crumpled up but i could tell there were numbers and little notes written on them....I only had 2 pennies amongst the handful of coins and papers so i threw them into the fountain and as i did, they turned into tiny pieces of papers, like i was casting my concerns to the water...as i threw them, the wind carried them to the left and a little boy ran up trying to catch hem....he wanted some pennies to throw into the fountain too... I reached into my hand but knew i had no pennies left for him, only these tiny pieces of paper...he ran off back to his family...

Also, at one point after throwing stuff into the fountain and walking back, I had two avocados in my hand and looked at the lady to ask if i could give this to her and she would pass it along to the author as a token gift from me, One of the avocados already had a part cut off of it but was still in good shape, the other was whole....I wanted to give them both to her to pass on to the author, she smiled lovingly at me and said, no, you keep them, we have plenty...

So, off we all went to go back out to the main room to get ready to watch the show/seminar... I felt very happy and excited that i got to go do this special back stage thing before the show.

Wow, ok, that's it....I do not know what to make of this dream, but it feels important to me...

Thanks to anyone who would like to help me interpret it!!!

Love, Ilona

[sparklekaz]

Hello Ilona,

I am glad that you wrote this dream down straight away, many dreams start to disappear as soon as the dreamer is fully awake..or we only retain a small fraction..

You are attending a Seminar, a gathering place for like minded people. A place of learning.....you are growing at a rapid pace and a rich source of information for you as for many others is through books. You look up to this particular author, they represent ideals and beliefs that you share and you admire this person. But the author, is also you, as you have been demonstrating recently, through penning your own meditations and posts.

You are looking for your seat, you are searching for your place in the scheme of things. Looking to find your level...your enthusiasm and desire to be in the forefront of what is going on is shown in your eagerness to follow the leader of the seminar, and to be first in the queue..

You are not easily deterred, or discouraged and this shows to me that you are a leader, and would one day enjoy running your own workshops, and sharing what you have learned with others, who do not have your drive and confidence. You have your moments when you are unsure of yourself, but your eagerness to learn pushes you forward.

I sense also, when you read something that really resonates with you, it gives you a great sense of excitement and anticipation, you know, feel that something wonderful will happen because some knowledge, or awareness has been made available to you.. do you ever wake up feeling as if something really special and spiritual is going to be made available to you. If you could only find a way of becoming more open to it???

I believe the answer to this, lies in meditation, and more reading, so you are definitely doing all the right things..

The fountain, spurting forth water, I feel is the emotional you, you are very sensitive and your feelings can be easily hurt. I feel you have cried many tears.... but you are growing because of this, do not switch off to your feelings, they are an integral part of who you are...your empathy with others. I do feel that you have a lot to offer, and maybe teaching others is in your future..what do you think??

Digging deeply into your pocket for your pennies, is not just about materialism, finding money maybe to help you with your future studies..I feel it means, that you must dig deep into yourself, to bring up all those things, that will help you further your future development.. it is there, and you do not need as much as you think. If you look after the pennies, the pounds will take care of themselves, is the analogy that comes to mind. I guess in your case, I should say, look after the cents, and the dollars will take care of themselves...

Avocado's are a very rich source of Iron, protein and Vitamins. I think that you are being asked to look after your health. Not that you are unwell, but you would benefit, from eating foods that contain these nutrients. Eating food in dreams is also about digesting information, and sharing it with others. What state were the avocado's in, if they were ripe, it shows that you are at a stage in your life where you are ripe, for the next stage in your emotional and spiritual development. But you also need to focus on all aspects of your well being, spiritual, emotional and physical. It is very important that they are all balanced..

I hope this has helped Ilona, as always remember this is simply my interpretation, take from this only that which resonates with you and leave the rest...

Love and light
Kaz

[nonigirl]

Oh Thank You Kaz!!

Everything you said was spot on to what i feel in the present life situations i am encountering....eagerly learning by reading, listening and experiencing as i am a part of this awesome wave of consciousness.

And, yes i am and always have been the leader type and am now feeling my strength once again to be more in the front as i regain my confidence...more maturely i might add. lol.

Yes, i do get very excited when i find resonance and am eager to share with others but i have been trying to find ways to open up that will help me to share....the meditations have helped me open up in ways i had not known before so this is good...and i feel a growth in this area too...i often start to do something and see how it could become a great meditation practice, in practical daily life.

Now the money issue was a revelation for me when i read what you wrote as I do feel in my present life situation that i am holding on to certain circumstances as to afford the luxury of time to become more practiced and focused and learned in this spiritual journey i am on....I think maybe realizing i do not need as much to have this journey and i should just trust it to happen as it will.... This is my struggle and i think when the coins turned into paper as i cast them into the fountain, those tiny pieces of paper may have had some of my worries on them, so casting them out to allow the universe to take care of them and transform them into positives, is a good sign i am letting go and trusting more.

The Avocados were in excellent shape, and i felt them to be a special treasure i would give as a token to the speaker/author.....there was a sliced top off of one of them but otherwise they were perfect and exactly how you would want to eat them...not too soft not too hard, just right....I did recently have an avocado that i cut up into my salad for the family dinner and i do remember thinking how delicious it would be since it was at the most perfect stage for eating. I would have wanted to share it with even more people as i love to prepare and feed people healthy whole grains and fruits and vegetables prepared to their liking, makes me feel i am helping to nurture the inhabitants of Gods planet... in service to all.

I will heed your advice and try to balance more the spiritual, emotional and the physical....I thank you very much for your time Kaz!!!

Love and Light, Ilona