A dream

[sparklekaz]

It is night time and I get up and come down the stairs to make something to eat for myself and my boyfriend.

While going into the kitchen I notice that the front door is ajar and think I must close it as someone could get in the house while we are sleeping. I moved toward the door but seemed to be moving in slow motion and my my vision went dark.

I panicked and tried to feel my way to the bottom of the stairs so I could call to my boyfriend to come and help me. I called his name over and over again but my voice seemed to lose its volume and the words came out quietly. He couldn't hear me. I need you, I need your help, I can't get to you. I then feel this awful constriction in my upper solar plexus and a feeling that I couldn't breathe..it woke me up.

Any idea's??

[Sinsual]

Right off the bat it sounds like you are wanting to communicate with your bf but feel unable to get thru to him. Stairs indicate subconscious separation rather than actual to me, but that's because I think of trains and stairs as metaphors for going deeper into those non-conscious states to access information I might not have access to wide awake.

The kitchen as you wisely told me in my dream is where we get our nourishment and feel at home, the center of our being in many ways. Its where we go to get what we feel we want or need to meet our bodies needs here in the physical world but our emotional/spiritual needs there in the non-physical world. The fact that you left his side to go get somethin that both of you could share feels a bit like trying to make a bridge between you or figuring out a way to approach a subject that might not be appetizing to start.

Finding the front door open was interesting. My inital thought is that when we open the front door it's inviting someone in. But your observation that leaving it open accidently might invite the wrong sort in. So I had to ask myself why do I think I've left a front door open? Do you feel that in trying to be at home with your BF you have left the door open so that he might venture into your life more emotionally without realizing that maybe you've left it a tad too exposed? I just keep coming back to this feeling of being exposed, vulnerable, out on a limb and uncomfortable.

I am not goin to run and find my buried books and look but from what i remember of the solar plexus its our gut instinct isn't it? If you can't breathe and feel paralyzed with fear/panic then i think maybe you have overextended yourself and much as you want him to meet you half way (between the kitchen and the bedrooms) he's not there for you.

Might be time to try the direct route with him.
Hope it helps and I'm not way off base.

Vandra aka Sinsual

[sparklekaz]

Hi Vandra,

Thank you so much for taking the time to look at my dream.

A lot of what you have said makes sense to me and fits in with some things that I have been working through. I definitely need to work on my communication techniques.

I think the door being open is about feeling vulnerable and exposed especially the thought of intruders in the house, while we are sleeping innocently upstairs. I used to often dream that I hadn't shut the door, or it wasn't locked and someone could get in. I would go down the stairs to see who was trying to get in and not be able to shut the door in time. Someone would force themselves in the house. It was always very frightening. I haven't had that dream for sometime, but a open front door always worries me.

Thanks again....

Love and light
Kaz