Re: Confused

[happilyhumble]

In my waking life, despite the many things that have been happening, (I have been clearing out old emotional baggage, to make way for the new). Along the way I have embraced the emotions, (good and bad) as I understand I need to before moving forward in finding my true self. I feel I have grown much, and still welcome knowledge and wisdom to help me along my journey every day.
Now what confuses me, is a dream I had last night. I think it is in light of the recent break up I have had with my boyfriend. Now this is not the first time we have broken up...and I don't really even think of it as "broken" at all. I feel that spirit has been telling me in order to fly and feel truly free, I need to take the focus off of my relationship, (which has been requiring much energy from both of us) and let it go to the universe. I know in my heart it is a good decision. I have felt more calm and peaceful since, letting go.
The dream confuses me, I am not together with my boyfriend in my dream. We are still friends. Though every time I make time to see him he tries to make me jealous. I don't feel jealous about him with other woman, because we are not together anymore. I try to ignore him and his escapades. He has a certain kind of sexual energy about him, but the subject he converses about has no evidence of this, he tries to act like he's not trying to send off these vibes. I am becoming annoyed at this point. He leaves and I am with someone I'm not sure who. We decide to watch a movie, and to my disgust it is a video of my ex-boyfriend in a car with two woman, he is all over them and looking into the camera...(meant to be my eyes) I don't know how or why the video is here, but watch seconds only before i am furious and turn it off, why would he be trying to make me jealous? I just want to move on!!! His games are driving me crazy, what's worse is that he is pretending nothing is going on. I feel like i am going to meet him as agreed, thinking it is about a serious subject, like work-related is the mind set I feel. I get there to be faced with a scene out of some kind of porno, some bare breasted woman fondling the ex-boyfriends nipple rings and both of them seemingly oblivious to my presence. Now I am really angry , that he is completely insensitive to my feelings that he sets me up this way, to make me feel uncomfortable, when I am serious about moving on with my life, without a relationship. I tell him, "That's it! This is the last straw!! I don't want to see you ever again! Stay out of my life, I have tried to be mature about all of this and you are acting like a child!" I storm off and, wake up.
It's strange...I don't understand , could you please shed some light on this for me? Thanks Glenda
P.S: I attached a picture, I don't know how these things really work, but thought maybe you might get a better sense of everything if you had a picture of me.

[sparklekaz]

Hi Happily Humble aka Glenda,

You say you are happy that you and your boyfriend have parted, as you feel it took a lot of energy out of both of you. Looking at the tone of your dream, I would say that you had a very physical relationship. I don't know if he ever used other women to make you jealous when you were together?

When we dream of a male it is usually a vision of our ideal man. In this dream it appears that your ex is your ideal of physical perfection. You don't appear to be jealous in this dream, but I sense there is an element of sexual jealousy. You say that he is with another women to make you jealous. Has he done this in the past, in your waking life? The women u are seeing, could be an aspect of you, when we see women in our dreams, they usually represent an aspect of ourselves. Does this women draped over him, like a trophy, is she a part of you, that you are trying to escape from. Or you are not all that this women represents, you are so much more. You want him to notice that in you. To see that you are more then a sexual object, u are a beautiful person in your own right with hopes, dreams and ideals. You want him to see you, you as you really are. All of you, not just an aspect of you.

You say he is making conversation, of an ordinary nature, but u say he is giving off sexual vibes. Is this because, even though you do not want to be with him, you are still physically attracted to him? Its not unheard of Glenda, just because we are not suited to someone emotionally or mentally, doesn't mean to say that they do not have the power to arouse us. We are only human, and dreams are a place where we often explore our sexuality.

Does he have Nipple rings in real life? Or is this a fantasy of yours? You also say that he is ignoring you, and this is making you upset. Did he do this in real life, ignore you. Did you feel that you were more of an object of desire rather then a women of intelligence and personality. Or it could be that on an unconscious level you would like to get back together, but he seems to be indifferent, so are trying to get his attention.

I'm sorry I can't be of more use to u Glenda, this dream seems to be more of an interplay between u two. I do believe you want to move on from this relationship, but as with all things when they come to an end, there is always a period of time when there is unfinished business. I believe u are not fulfilled by this relationship, the physical is now no longer enough for you, you wish for much more and are ready to move on.

I hope this has helped...it is only my impressions, you must take from it what resonates with you, and leave the rest.

Love and light
Kaz