Understanding Death and Tragedy

[maddrose]

I'm 18 and recently a friend of mine committed suicide. I've been struggling with it a lot. Three years ago I attempted suicide several times, but somehow I survived. I consider myself very lucky and wondered if perhaps my recovery is owed to divine intervention. The death of my friend, has lead me to question many of my spiritual beliefs. I don't understand how the suicide of a beautiful teenager could be part of the divine plan. I know that the divine, that God, is not something my human mind will ever be able to fully comprehend, but I don't know how to process tragedy without losing faith in the universe. Every time tragedy strikes I find myself questioning my faith. I don't understand why sometimes the divine intervenes while at other times it does not. It makes me wonder if this "divine intervention" or plan, is imaginary. When I think about the suffering in the world, I either doubt the existence of God, or feel angry at the divine for allowing suffering to occur. I just want to know how I can maintain my faith in the face of suffering, loss and tragedy?

[christdavid]

My dear child of God. Both Heaven and Hell are in you. There is a voice that you will hear that would offer you death. It sounds just like your voice. This is the voice of doubt, fear and guilt. It does not bode you well. Hear it not.

In the world you are free to choose. Your Father would not restrict you. He would not recognize you unless you were free. Always remember that you are am eternal being, even though death can seem very real to you.

I think the main truth you should know is that the past is no more and the future is still there for you. Your healing starts, "Now." I would like you to practice living "Now." When you seem attracted to the past do not go there. For there the voice of the deceiver will attack you. It will weld the chains of guilt to you and will try to hold you there. If you are in the past you cannot live "Now."

In between the past and the future you will find eternity. In this "Holly Instant" you are a guiltless child of God. It is always "Now." The time of Christ is "Now."

Your brothers are here for you always. Take our hand.

Christ David

[sparklekaz]

Dear Rose,

I am really sorry to hear about your friend. Losing someone we care about is always very hard, when it is a suicide, it is even harder.

I can understand your questions. Why were you saved, and why was your friend not. It is a difficult question to answer, but I will tell you my thoughts on it.

If you were in a car accident, and others traveling with you were killed and you were not. I would imagine you might ask yourself the same question. The only answer I can think of is it was not your time.

I do believe, there is a divine purpose behind our lives. We are born to enjoy a full and rich life. But how we live our lives, how easy or how hard it is, is up to us and part of our life plan. Decided before we came to earth. For the experiences we have present us with opportunities to learn and grow. Often the experiences that promote the most growth are the most incredibly painful.

From what you have said, you have in your young life already faced many difficult experiences. You have learned a lot from them, having faced them, you are in a unique position, to help others if you want too. Losing your friend, under such awful circumstances is giving you the opportunity to see this situation from both sides. Having experienced the desperation that drives someone to do this, and as one who has lost someone they cared about to suicide and the pain it causes those left behind.

You can either decide to see this as a affirmation that there is no reason to why things happen, and cause it to make you doubt your beliefs. Or you can see it as a opportunity to grow from this experience and use what you have learned to help others. The choice is always ours.

Life is not always easy Rose, but it can be really wonderful. I believe that we are fortunate that life presents us with more reasons to be joyful then sad. It is always such a terrible waste of a life when a young person decides to go before their time. I am so happy that you did not. You have a purpose, trust in that! I hope this has helped Rose, these are only my thoughts, but I believe them to be true.

Love and light
Kaz

[clara927]

Dear Rose,

I'm sorry that your friend passed away and I don't think there any words that could explain how it made you feel. I don't know if there are any words of comfort I could provide. I do feel there is a reason you are still here. I'd like to echo Chritdavid's thoughts. You might question God and your mind may be full of fear and guilt, but you can remember that you have a choice. I do know that doubt, guilt and fear are not the answers and they tend take you in circles. I do know that you can choose not to listen to the voices of doubt and fear. This is something I'm struggling with still, so don't think your alone in what you went through. If you are not told that someone cares about you and that you are loved, please know that you are. There are people that care about you deeply and are happy that you are alive.