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Post by sparklekaz on Feb 26, 2007 22:47:16 GMT
How precious is the breath of life How little we really know of it To hold that flame within a hand To watch its extinguish from my sight How hard to watch, how hard to take Never from my sight Never from my sight
Fly swift sweet prince towards the stars Shiny black mane and eyes so bright forever eternal my sweet friend a lick, on the hand forever my friend
A ode to a beautiful Black handsome boy
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Post by Leon on Feb 27, 2007 0:19:26 GMT
Who wrote these ever so poetic words Kaz.
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Post by sparklekaz on Feb 27, 2007 9:13:37 GMT
I work at a vet's and last night had to assist with this beautiful old man's passing. I found the whole thing very upsetting and wonder if I am meant to be in this job. I have been put in this position 4 times in the last two weeks. Two times, I could clearly see suffering and pain. But twice, and last night included I felt doubt. I believe we should alleviate the suffering of our animal friends, yes..but to with the blink of an eye send them over, I don't think so. In certain extreme circumstances yes, but there is so much that is not necessary. So far, the animals that have passed have passed for medical reasons. If someone came in with an unwanted pet and asked for their life to be taken; and it was done..then I would have to leave. Last night, really upset me so much, I am considering leaving anyway. My husband says I give a lot of ease and comfort to the sick animals, its my job often to look after them when they are going for surgery and then just afterwards. Even the vet has commented on how the quieten and calm and go to sleep when I stroke and hold them. I love that part..but I don't think I can cope with the other stuff.
I wanted to write something for Dimble, a 13yr old Black Labrador who I only knew briefly, but will remember always.
Lots of love Karen
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Post by sparklekaz on Feb 27, 2007 9:27:33 GMT
I float around on a red sea Surrounded by light protected by my bubble I bounce I jump I AM ME I am thought I am awareness I am soooo small I SLEEP I am thought I am awareness I am bigger I cannot bounce so far WAITING The light awaits me I go towards the light BIRTH
This is my earliest memory..but I cannot tell, is it my birth or is it my passing...!!!
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Post by sparklekaz on Feb 27, 2007 9:30:04 GMT
Forgive me my friends for using these boards as a way of vocalising my thoughts at this moment in time and my feelings. I guess being so close to death, something I have always been frightened of is something that is bringing all sorts of stuff to the surface.
Lots of love Kaz
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Post by Leon on Feb 27, 2007 12:25:58 GMT
Dearest Karen, I know it is the hardest thing in the world to watch any living creature die. It would of brought me to tears to watch poor cheeky faced dimble to have died as well. Yet I am sure dimble would have prefered to of had you hold his paws and comfort him than somone who is hardened to death, someone who just went through the whole process as some act. What would you want if you was lying in a bed sick in your last moments, would you want a loving soul next to you, or someone that did not care and was standing beside you just for the money. There is no more important healing job on this earth than what you did for dimble, or for anyone that passes over. You was holding the gate open for dimbles passage to the spirit world. A gate keeper to the kingdom of heaven, what more glorious role could there be, than holding the doors to heaven open for any living creature on this earth. Be proud of who you are and what you have done. God bless you Kaz keep up gods works. www.thegodlight.co.uk
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Post by zanna on Feb 27, 2007 12:49:21 GMT
Ah(((((((( Kaz)))))))
Bless you sweetheart, I coudln't do that, although I know it would be with God'd divine light. It would tear me apart. But you have a wonderful gift, so special sweetheart.
God Bless you Kaz xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Post by angelight on Feb 27, 2007 17:27:16 GMT
Dearest Kaz,
I have just read this thread and cried. My goodness, i think i need an early night, lol.
I read Leons words and i could not have said anything more. What he said is exactly what i wanted to say. God bless you babe.
One of the residents from work is in hospital, i'm going to visit her tonight. They dont expect her to come back to the home, they suspect she too will pass over. She suffers with terrible dementia and in many ways her quality of life has been poor. I think i will miss her though. Bless her little heart. Please send your loving thoughts out to her, to help her on whatever pathway she travels.
God bless Kaz.....and all.
Love Kel xxx
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Post by tickledpink on Feb 27, 2007 18:19:05 GMT
Dearest Kind Karen You are compassionate and wise beyond your time...... Your heart is filled with priceless, precious love.... You are a giver of comfort to all who cross your path.....Your words portray the eloquence and grandness of your being..... The light in your eyes is so radiant, for through them shines the glowing kindness and pureness of your beautiful soul....... I feel blessed to share my thoughts and feelings with with you.... Today, I feel your pain and confusion, my heart is heavy for you. I too have stood beside my precious little friends as they passed onto another place. Most in my family cannot accompany our friends, they feel too deeply affected thereafter. My boyfriend cannot either.....This past spring, I went in alone with my dear cat Artsie. He was purring, which surprised me and the vet who was on hand. She said that it had never happened in the history of her career. He let me know that it was ok....He went very quickly and peacefully which helped me better accept his passing in the days that followed. It is by far one of the hardest things that I have done in my life. I do feel strong enough to do it, but like you, I don't think that I would do it on a steadier basis. Is there a pet shop near to where you live? Maybe this might be something that you could look into. You are beautiful, my dearest Karen... I send you many warm and loving hugs of comfort to help heal your lovely heart...Your poems are filled with the depth of gentle emotion, thank you for sharing them with me xo..... Lots of Love to you today xo... Kerry xo...
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Post by sweetsilver on Feb 27, 2007 18:32:16 GMT
dear karen i'm sending you this message and hope it bring's you some comfort i believe friends are like quiet angel's who hold us up when our wing's forget how to fly god bless you for the wonderful work you do xxxxxxxx
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Post by tickledpink on Mar 1, 2007 4:32:13 GMT
Dear Karen I have had you on my mind for a couple of days now. I am wondering how you are feeling? I hope that you're ok ...... Thinking of you, and sending Lots of Love & Hugs your way xoxo.... Kerry
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Post by undineworker on Mar 1, 2007 7:20:21 GMT
my poor dear friend, you are there to give healing and comfort to our four legged friends when they pass, and you also know in your heart no matter how hard it becomes, that you are there for a reason. I believe the reason is to understand more about the death you so fear. You will come to understand, but there is no guarantee that understanding will come easily and often the greatest understanding comes with the largest amount of pain and difficulty first. I do hope you can be brave and see the light in the darkness, for there is a light, you just dont know it yet.
Love and even more light to you Lizzie xx
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Post by angelight on Mar 4, 2007 16:55:11 GMT
Hello Kaz,
I havnt spoken to you for a while hun, as you know i have been having some difficulties in my life at the mo, which is why i havnt been around much.
Just to let you know, i am here if you need me for anything sweetheart.
Take care, Kel xxx p.s if anyone is interested the lady i spoke of earlier in this thread has came beck to the home.......she didnt give in, lol. Its obviously not her time to leave us yet. She is one resilient lady!!
xx
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Post by sparklekaz on Mar 4, 2007 21:23:53 GMT
Thank you all of you for your wonderful kind words of comfort and encouragement.
I am still there at the vet's and I am taking each day as it comes. If its meant to be, then I guess it's meant to be.
It did help a lot to think of it in terms of actually helping these beautiful friends on their way to their "New Life" rather then helping them to end it....so for that, Leon thank youxxx I too would definitely want someone who cared with me in my last moments, then someone who was hardened to death.
To Zanna, Kerry, Sweetsilver, Lizzie and Kelly you are sweet kind friends and I am grateful to have you all in my life.
Dear Kelly, I am so pleased to hear of your friends recovery. I did think of you going to visit her in hospital, and wondered how things had gone. I am so glad she is still with us..not her time yet. But when that time comes, I am sure you will be there for her!!
Lots of love to you all Karen
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