Ongoing dream interpretation soulmate Feb 27, 2018 1:45:18 GMT via mobile
Post by lanalana111 on Feb 27, 2018 1:45:18 GMT
I’ve found myself here asking for insight because this has been eating away at me for years. When I was about 9 or so, possibly 8, I started seeing the same figure in my dreams. I could never see them, only sense their presence, but knew they were male for some reason. I began to see them in my dreams more than regularly, and as I began to grow older and my lucid dreaming and hallucinations caused by severe insomnia I began to grow close to this figure in my dreams as I could begin to physically feel them and be near to them. I was a lonely child with little friends so at first I never really thought into it just enjoyed and was amused by the same person appearing in my dreams, but as I grew into a young teenager and they were still there things started to become more profound. I’ve suffered from depression from early childhood, but it really surfaced and destroyed my life when I was around 11-16 years old, and the person in my dreams became someone I was desperate to see. I started seeing them as some sort of savoir and when I suddenly stopped seeing them in my dreams and haven’t since only on one or two occasions I became completely infatuated with them I almost drove myself crazy wanting to see them. It sounds strange but slowly I started to feel their presence instead, not on certain occasions but permanently. After years of thinking about them and feeling such as a strong connection to them I’ve realised in a way that makes me feel insane that they’re a part of me and always have been and not just because I knew them in my sleep and altered states. It goes deeper than that I just know it because I feel it. Is there a chance this person is truly my other half, my soulmate so to say because when I think of the idea that that is true and that we were separated in this life nothing has ever felt more certain to me. I can’t find them but I feel them and I have this feeling that they’re searching for me too but I’m a 19 year old girl with her life ahead of her and am being tormented by the fact that this figure, who I sense and feel and share myself with in ways I can’t explain because it’s just a natural sensation because I feel as if they’re connected to my soul so strongly, is really hurting my soul because they were torn out of it. In almost 80% of my dreams, he would die at the end of every single one of them, and each time the next dream it would have brought us closer but we’d both be weaker and before he disappeared from my dreams I was at one of my worse points and he theoretically too. Is there any chance this just enhances this idea that I lost him? I know I may be completely overthinking this but I can’t shake his presence the feeling I feel so profoundly. I’ve always felt lost in life but I’ve never felt model certain about this. Is there any insight anybody has, any similar stories? Any ways to cope knowing I may never find this person and that my soul will always be damaged? Above all does anyone have any idea what this could all be about aside from what I believe it to be about. I’m not a religious or hugely spiritual person so for me to be this wrapped up in something is bizzare and exhausting and I’d love some answers or help.