Post by gruntal on Apr 19, 2015 16:12:32 GMT
I have wondered if one could reach a point where they had a goal, an outlook, actually a very self definition of being that shaped their life. But they could not or chose not to even talk about it.
I realize that borders on the fringe of mental illness. You meet some people at the store, you shake their hand; never knowing you were a robot disguised as a human being bent on having them for lunch. Literally. I guess to some people it might be very disappointing there are no dragons; no extra terrestrials; no psychic abilities, no absolutes, no dreams; the moon landing was all staged and the earth really is flat.
Oops I seem to have gotten carried away. Some of this is real. And some of it is not. But what? And how can you tell?
Which brings us back to the beginning. People have something they believe in. About you and about themselves. It effects how they view the world and how they treat it. It isn't obvious at first glance when you are around them. You might be frightened if you knew what was going on inside people's heads.
Or you might be very pleased. Even stunned. Even ecstatic.
People ask me about my spiritual specialty or how long I have been on the path or what I have discovered. I am a spiritual troglodyte. I really have nothing to tell although I have heard some amazing things. Sort of like what if you could have a lucid dream with the Master Jesus. I had no answer, no argument, no observation to offer about what I heard. My whole thought process had to change to make sense of it. When it did I seemed drawn to something. For once in my life there was a purpose beyond self preservation.
Well maybe some day. I am definitely in a stage of transition. I do wonder though. What it would be like to do this full time. And know it was going to come to pass. That would be quite a thing to live for. Especially if I knew it would be better to keep it a secret but to a select few. As for now I am not sure how much I even want myself to know. I do try to smile even when I do not feel like it.
You do wonder though. People you meet. They smile. And what is beyond that smile ?! What are they up to?
I realize that borders on the fringe of mental illness. You meet some people at the store, you shake their hand; never knowing you were a robot disguised as a human being bent on having them for lunch. Literally. I guess to some people it might be very disappointing there are no dragons; no extra terrestrials; no psychic abilities, no absolutes, no dreams; the moon landing was all staged and the earth really is flat.
Oops I seem to have gotten carried away. Some of this is real. And some of it is not. But what? And how can you tell?
Which brings us back to the beginning. People have something they believe in. About you and about themselves. It effects how they view the world and how they treat it. It isn't obvious at first glance when you are around them. You might be frightened if you knew what was going on inside people's heads.
Or you might be very pleased. Even stunned. Even ecstatic.
People ask me about my spiritual specialty or how long I have been on the path or what I have discovered. I am a spiritual troglodyte. I really have nothing to tell although I have heard some amazing things. Sort of like what if you could have a lucid dream with the Master Jesus. I had no answer, no argument, no observation to offer about what I heard. My whole thought process had to change to make sense of it. When it did I seemed drawn to something. For once in my life there was a purpose beyond self preservation.
Well maybe some day. I am definitely in a stage of transition. I do wonder though. What it would be like to do this full time. And know it was going to come to pass. That would be quite a thing to live for. Especially if I knew it would be better to keep it a secret but to a select few. As for now I am not sure how much I even want myself to know. I do try to smile even when I do not feel like it.
You do wonder though. People you meet. They smile. And what is beyond that smile ?! What are they up to?