Post by donq on Jul 15, 2014 11:27:38 GMT
Two night ago, I had worked so late and had a chance to chat with some of my dear friends. It was a very warm and friendly chat. I would never trade that warm feeling with anything. :-)
I was asked why I lost some of my (psychic) abilities many years ago. I just made a short reply as I didn’t have time to really figure out deeply about it. Let me try it again here.
I think that time I was kind of losing faith. Anyway, I never expected that walking on spiritual path would always lead me to plenty of success and could always save me from any painful situation. I got many success as much as many losing. It was just that very time, I had lost faith in everything, both good and bad ones. I felt indifferent no matter anything/anyone would be good or bad. I could see so clear that there were some definite patterns in life. Though we always had our choices to make all the time but some events would be followed by something we had chosen. It was about its trend or nature. So many times, after I had changed my mind in the very last second and chose to do something that I really didn’t want to do at first, it turned out to be good fortune. And so many times, after I chose doing something I really wanted to do, it turned out to be misfortune later.
During that time, it seemed I understood life deeper. Not only from spiritual side but worldly side, too. I came to believe that in the final analysis life was a mutual relationship between spiritual and worldly side. They were interconnectedness, not a conflict or chaos.
No matter what I had gained from my long time spiritual practice (that time it had been about 25 years of practice) it was really indifferent for me. Whether I really lost it or it still was with me, I felt indifferent. And at that point, somehow I really felt so calm. Gaining and losing had no meaning for me. I felt more uplifted and unburdened. I felt home with myself. Since then, though I still have been continuing my learning every day but didn’t take it seriously like before. It’s good If I could learn something new but it’s not bad if I not. I still get some experience from it. The time of my life seems to slow down but I feel more and more peaceful.
So, if you ask whether I will regain my psychic ability back or not, my answer is I honestly don’t know. But I really can live with that. I can be nobody without any hard feeling. I used to think that I had to practice until I reach at that and that level of spirituality but now I don’t need to gain anything from life any more. It’s good if I could but it’s not bad if I couldn’t. I already have seen and witnessed so many miracle things in life and that’s already worth my living. Why do I have to be greedy for more? :-)
Thanks for reading this.
P.S. Sorry for any typo. I don't have enough time to recheck it.