The God Light Spiritual Truths Forum :: Home :: The God Light Spiritual Message Board :: cancer i so dont like this word Author Topic: cancer i so dont like this word (Read 638 times) emeraldlite member is offline Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 157 cancer i so dont like this word « Thread Started on May 28, 2007, 3:10am » The first time it happened i was around 26 i think. Sitting at work doing reception etc hubby then my fiance went to the doctor, the doctor did tests, then he had to go see another one, then another one all in one day. He later phoned me back at work i wasnt allowed the time off work to go with him and be with him while he dealt with the news himself. He rang me at work i was with a salesman ordering some stock. I burst into tears. He said that they had to operate on him. WE had no time to absorb the information it was just boom boom boom. Into hospital they took a sample of his testies. Was only a day in and day out. I litterally cried for 3 days smoked more cigarettes in my life than i had ever smoked before. The test results came back and he had testonial cancer and they removed one of his testicles. Quite a common cancer in males. Any way supported him at hospital not the most nice places to go. Sitting in the waiting room watching everyone else have drips and they were all old people in their. We were the only young people their. They did radiation on him for 3 weeks we were told we werent allowed to have children with a 4 year period. While all this was going on I was deciding in my mind whether i should marry him or not what if he died how would i cope. I wasnt ready for that kind of thing in my life i was only 26 years old very innocent and very inexperienced. I decided to marry him and give him the wedding he wanted. His dream was to go to disneyland so we did. We waited and forgot about having children because we were told we werent allowed( we put his sperm in the sperm bank incase we couldnt conceive naturally). All that playing on my mind as well. What if we couldnt conceive children naturally i couldn't imagine injecting myself with a needle. That just wasnt a possibility. Time passed and as we grew together as a married couple experiencing life we decided to get pregnant we had both given up cigarettes by that stage so from that point of view we were safe. We got pregnant and had Sam, she was 6 weeks early and we were in the baby unit thats such a scary place i dont envy anyone that goes through their so many tiny babies. we were there for a week and a half samantha was the only name i had given her they nurses after they heard about our story called her the miracle baby she was and we are very lucky to have her. Then we get pregnant again and have maria also thats the only name i gave her. (Both of them i didnt no their sexes chose their names. Brings us to this point now where im thinking De'Ja"Vue Please not cancer again. He was gonna get his tubes tied whatever. I said to him hes not doing it he said yes he is i said no your not he made the appointment then proceeded to ring me and tell me to make a doctors call so i did he goes for tests blood tests and xray and today he tells me he has to go to see another doctor. This cant be cancer please dont allow it I need him strong . I need him strong for us and the kids they need their father they are too young please dont allow this I dont even know if any of this is reading right this is tearing me apart so much and with everything else that is goin on please just bear with me for the next few days im so lost i dont no where to go what to do but just sit and cry and wait for news and try and be strong myself i so need him he is my rock he is my world and i love him so much im sorry no one here knows my personal life cause i dont like sharing negative stuff its just not me and im so much stronger than that but this is a real weak moment for me at the moment please dont be angry with me for the hurt ive created etc etc this is a big big deal to me i hope you all understand Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged Prince of Peace member is offline Joined: Apr 2007 Gender: Male Posts: 124 Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #1 on May 28, 2007, 4:02am » Dear nat, God be with you in this time of need. Peace to you nat. Take care. Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged sparklekaz Guest Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #2 on May 28, 2007, 7:48am » Dear Nat, My thoughts and prayers are with you. Keep strong, stay positive. With love and Light Kaz Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged RicDreamscape member is offline Don't confuse an image with who you are. Joined: May 2007 Gender: Male Posts: 56 Location: Argentina Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #3 on May 28, 2007, 1:27pm » Oh Nat! Such a strong moment in your life! I will here for you, when we meet in the room. Many of us will! If I may, please consider this words: It is a great time to seek into spirituality. You need not be alone through all this. There is a Love that is in your heart, and yet is greater than any of us. Read books written by loving enlightened beings. Seek the company of loving spiritual people. Pray or meditate - whatever allows you to face your fears fearslessly. Fear often grows stronger in the dark, when not shared or not acknowledged. I am holding you and your husband in my heart. Ric Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged I am the space where all this happens. Gina member is offline Joined: Apr 2006 Gender: Female Posts: 78 Location: West Midlands Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #4 on Jun 1, 2007, 11:20am » Nat I cannot begin to imagine what you are feeling at this moment, You are not alone Nat, my thoughts & prayers are with you everyday. I hope the results come back good. Keep strong for you & your family look after yourself & take good care Love & light Gina xxxx Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged Leon member is offline Joined: Jan 2006 Gender: Male Posts: 1,722 Location: England Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #5 on Jun 1, 2007, 2:26pm » Lots of love to my dear friend Nat, I do pray everything is put back into it's rightful place and happness returns to you and all your family. Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged A happy soul has no goal but a path to follow to save it's sorrow. angelight member is offline Follow That Rainbow and Reach for the Stars!! Joined: Dec 2006 Gender: Female Posts: 301 Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #6 on Jun 1, 2007, 9:00pm » Hey Nat, As you probably know I havn't been on here much lately, I have just read this thread. Bless you sweetheart. This must be such an emotionally and mentally draining time for you all. I just wanted to say that my thoughts are with you and your family at this time and I am sending love to all of you. God bless, Kel xxx Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged emeraldlite member is offline Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 157 Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #7 on Jun 3, 2007, 8:12am » Thank you all for your support. I will be back online end of the week. Hubby will be going for an MIR scan on the 11th so hoping for the best. The doctor does say he has some bruising and some tearing around the back muscles so we are hoping thats all they pick up. His lungs are clear and healthy as are his kidneys. Thank you all for your support in this ordeal I am having will keep you all posted. and Thank you for your prayers. Much love Nat Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged emeraldlite member is offline Joined: Jan 2007 Posts: 157 Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #8 on Jun 11, 2007, 6:07am » he went for the scan only to be rung up an hour later to go back for more tests and to have the die put through him. He's dealing with it so much better than me. But then im sure underneath he is worried himself. He goes back on Thursday i forgot what time that just flew by me lol ill ask him again at a later time lol. He doesnt go back to the specialist till the 29th thats the earliest they can fit him in. It's his birthday on the 29th. He might try and bring it forward i dont no yet. This is happening in slow motion. He;s just telling me it might be not as bad as what i think it is. He's looking on the bright side of it which is good. I'm not so strong. He said that they had found something between his neck and his hip he wasnt quite sure and kind of pushed that aside and keeps telling me dont worry its only something really simple. Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged sparklekaz Guest Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #9 on Jun 11, 2007, 7:01am » Dear Nat, thanking of you and sending you love and healing at this difficult time. Your husband is being positive and that is the best attitude to have. For those loved ones, its much harder, he's in the moment, and has to deal with what is thrown at him. He's a gutsy bloke, a great man, you must be very proud of him. Love and light Kaz Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged xclare member is offline Joined: Jun 2007 Posts: 2 Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #10 on Jun 11, 2007, 12:29pm » nat, i really feel for you honey. i will be praying for you and your family, i cant imagine what you are going through. lets hope this time the news is good. BE STRONG. xxxxxxxx Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged pallave member is offline Joined: May 2007 Gender: Female Posts: 9 Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #11 on Jun 11, 2007, 2:32pm » Hi Nat I pray that your husband gets through this without any cancer.Be strong, we are all praying for u and your family.LOVE Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged rainclowds member is offline Joined: May 2007 Gender: Female Posts: 198 Location: india Re: cancer i so dont like this word « Reply #12 on Jun 11, 2007, 6:05pm » Dear Nat, praying for both of u...and the lil' ones too....remember the poem bout the 'footprints'?/...well..this is one time god is holding u in his arms...trust him.....lean on him....all our prayers are going up for u....take care of urself ,nat....and be strong...for ur hubby and the lil ones.....NOTHING...IS IMOSSIBLE FOR GOD. love and prayers....hugs, swee. Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged With God nothing is impossible. 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